i miss slipknot
me and slipknot should have never mixed and right now i am so screwed up this is my music of choice. slipknot. im so not 16 anymore.
the only thing holding my tears in from day to day is my constant always being fucked up. aderol, liquor, weed....weed,liquor, aderal, aderal and weed weed and liquor. kinda bad i know. but seriously i dont know what to do with myself.
i miss my dog which i know seems totally immature but i fucking loved my dog.
and my parents who have been dating/married since they were 12, no i know all those years were certainly not happy but its just weird to know they are over. i was always kinda aware since they didnt sleep in a room together for a while but just knowin when i go home im only going home to my mom and maybe sometimee my sister is around too.
moving to a whole new area, with new neighbors and new adjustment just seems kinda unbearable.
today a bum asked me if i was pregnant, then he told me i sure looked pregnant and laughed. glad to know that the bums can be so helpful as to educate me about my appearance. that made me feel really unwanted, ugly and well the obvious...fat.
im just ready to try to make myself happy but cant get motivation enough.
i have a meeting with the guy who "deals" with students from columbia who want to go to law school. i dont even know if that fits, or if this school fits, or maybe im just the odd fit.
sorry im babbling, im just really sad. and i tried to talk to linds but shes so happy on the account of a new bf that like i just brought her down. and i could tell i was burdeing her.
unwanted, undesirable and the wrong fit.
^^^^the bext words to describe me^^^^^^
the only thing holding my tears in from day to day is my constant always being fucked up. aderol, liquor, weed....weed,liquor, aderal, aderal and weed weed and liquor. kinda bad i know. but seriously i dont know what to do with myself.
i miss my dog which i know seems totally immature but i fucking loved my dog.
and my parents who have been dating/married since they were 12, no i know all those years were certainly not happy but its just weird to know they are over. i was always kinda aware since they didnt sleep in a room together for a while but just knowin when i go home im only going home to my mom and maybe sometimee my sister is around too.
moving to a whole new area, with new neighbors and new adjustment just seems kinda unbearable.
today a bum asked me if i was pregnant, then he told me i sure looked pregnant and laughed. glad to know that the bums can be so helpful as to educate me about my appearance. that made me feel really unwanted, ugly and well the obvious...fat.
im just ready to try to make myself happy but cant get motivation enough.
i have a meeting with the guy who "deals" with students from columbia who want to go to law school. i dont even know if that fits, or if this school fits, or maybe im just the odd fit.
sorry im babbling, im just really sad. and i tried to talk to linds but shes so happy on the account of a new bf that like i just brought her down. and i could tell i was burdeing her.
unwanted, undesirable and the wrong fit.
^^^^the bext words to describe me^^^^^^