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[portuguesepimp]

One more day
Behind fallen trees
lost and terrified
in this world of broken
past tired leaves
infuriating
with a cool October Breeze
I wish with every breath
taken back into this Fucked
up insecure body
that
something is something
something is sometihng
Lifting scarred cigarette burns
to feel something
Greater than myself
I can remember
time of
Sanctity
hiding with my brother
In piles of crisp leaves
and crisp inhales
Smacked in the face
Find it hard to breath
Lasting
Signs of what my life would become
nights where waking up is
a waste of time
where one hit could erase
any problem
and in that
escape comes greater pains
of apathy and anger
smacked hard
disregard, disrespect angered
dissapointed and filled
with too much nothing
too much hope for something greater
something is something
something is something
Ive fallen
and have been left at the bottom
You could only go up
Ive got one knife and one heart
and a whole lot of alcohol to fill
every last pour of this tired body
One more day
lost and terrified.

i feel so stupid.