oh my goodness...did anyone think i was still alive??
helloooooo!...I'm baaack..yeah its been over a year since i have written anything in here lol..maybe it's just cause i didn't have the energy to write anything...my life for the past year has been nothing but stress lol...i'm gonna try and make this short and sweet because i don't want to talk about *him* for too long lol as everyone read, I broke up with Matt in April of last year...We still talked and hung out a few times within this past year and basically he played with my head the whole time, making me think we were going to go back out...he stated he still lovedme but he just didn't want to be with anyone at the moment..riiight....on my birthday he came and saw me and talked to brandi on the phone for an hour about me and he was blabbing basically more lies to play with my head..he said he knew we were going to get back together blah blah blah wel anyway time went on and i started talking to another kid and matt was always so defensive about it because deep down i knew he really cared he just has to be all thuggish now and hide his feelings but whatever ...anyway he would always say to me "grace we are suppose to be best friends, u can tell me anything even about the guys u are with" funny how i have to tell him everything but he tells me nothin..lol.....so this brings me up to about a month ago when my boss tells me she saw matt picking up a girl at the tanning place so i told matt i was going to his house in the morning to have a chat with him...the next morning i went to his house and straight out told him i couldnt do it anymore i said matt u never tell me about anything in ur life and u make me feel guilty everytime i talk to a guy..it's not the fact that he was talking to a girl, it's the fact that he hid it from me and when i confonted him about it he said ehh i dont have to tell u everything...well funny cause i have to tell u EVERYTHING..all i ever wanted was for him to be happy, whether it was with me or someone else..but if we cant even have an honest open friendship then whats the sense in that...anyway we talked about other stuff as well and i left with telling him that i didnt want anything to do with him not even be his friend because he was hurting me way too much and he kept saying "we will still be friends grace..u will see" well i am proud to say that i have not called him or sent him any cards or anythig of any sort in a month...i dont even talk about him to my friends..he's in the past for now if one day god wants us to be friends then so be it but my life is so much better off without him right now..i have been talking to this new kid for a lil bit, and can i just tell you that i have had a smile on my face ever since...we can talk about ANYTHING..we are constantly laughing (big plus) and he is the biggest sweetheart..summer is coming which means going on his street bike lol..also i am also now an aunt ( Titi Grace)...Savannah Skye was born on March 5th :)...my sister goes back to work starting tomorrow and i will be watching the baby during the day while she is at work...this is going to be a slap of reality to me lol..big responsibilities the only day i'll have free this week between watching the baby and work is wednesday night, which will hopefully be taken up with seein' Mark :) well i think i have written enough for today...from here on out I have to continue updating because this actually makes me feel better writing everything down lol...see you all tomorrow :)