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Maybe this would be fun to do again after a year hiatus. I'm not sure. I feel like I need a place to deposit thoughts. But it's a little public. But maybe that's good. I can air my sheets on the balcony.
I'm feeling rather nostalgic recently and have attempted to reach out to lost loves. So far it's unrequited. It's frustrating, but I have to say that unrequited letters are the very very worst.
It's summer time, and it's nothing very grand. I feel like I'm just pokin' around. I went swimming on Monday for the first time this season, and that felt youthful and summery and everything swimming should be. But other than that, it's like winter- just warmer and with fewer people.
Emily told me the other day that I just needed one great hour and everything would turn around for me. Just one hour of unqualified pleasure- a conversation, food, music, a walk, dancing... I think she's right. Enjoyment of anything seems very filtered right now. I want to experience something intense and in full. I want to be ecstatic if only for an hour.
I'm feeling rather nostalgic recently and have attempted to reach out to lost loves. So far it's unrequited. It's frustrating, but I have to say that unrequited letters are the very very worst.
It's summer time, and it's nothing very grand. I feel like I'm just pokin' around. I went swimming on Monday for the first time this season, and that felt youthful and summery and everything swimming should be. But other than that, it's like winter- just warmer and with fewer people.
Emily told me the other day that I just needed one great hour and everything would turn around for me. Just one hour of unqualified pleasure- a conversation, food, music, a walk, dancing... I think she's right. Enjoyment of anything seems very filtered right now. I want to experience something intense and in full. I want to be ecstatic if only for an hour.