So its 10:49 PM
Ugh, I've got a terrible wall of writer's block in front of me. I'm sitting here, staring at this chapter thinking to myself "What on earth is he going through?"
Not going to explain everything, cause then I'd be here forever, but Isaac is in a position where he's pissed off at his comrade and friend, who is at the moment marching off to his imminent death. You don't know Isaac, but he's got a crazy bad temper and is prone to severe over reaction.
Now, I've got to write him going from super pissed... to being utterly horrified and emotionally destroyed.
I'm so stumped that I've actually jumped ahead and begun to write future chapters.
A bit more into my personal life, I was just now notified that my step-grandfather is in the ICU, apparently he had a stroke and has taken a turn for the worse. Doctors say he won't make it much longer, and I think the most interesting part of this story is my grandmother's reaction. She's a strong willed person, so I didn't expect her to be in tears or anything. Instead, she just looked at my mother and said "I don't know what to do" with the calmest expression you could imagine. It's amazing just how varied we humans are. If someone I loved was knocking on death's door, I'd be a basket case... and then I know people who would struggle to keep their emotions under control.... and now my grandmother shows me something I've never seen before. During this time of distress, she doesn't become emotionally unstable, she became emotionally lost. What do I feel right now? Pity. I never got along with my step grandfather, but I acknowledge that my grandmother loves him. I feel bad for her, but I don't feel anything else otherwise, save for the compassion that is owed to any fellow human that will soon depart. Whether or not we got along, he's in my prayers.
Not going to explain everything, cause then I'd be here forever, but Isaac is in a position where he's pissed off at his comrade and friend, who is at the moment marching off to his imminent death. You don't know Isaac, but he's got a crazy bad temper and is prone to severe over reaction.
Now, I've got to write him going from super pissed... to being utterly horrified and emotionally destroyed.
I'm so stumped that I've actually jumped ahead and begun to write future chapters.
A bit more into my personal life, I was just now notified that my step-grandfather is in the ICU, apparently he had a stroke and has taken a turn for the worse. Doctors say he won't make it much longer, and I think the most interesting part of this story is my grandmother's reaction. She's a strong willed person, so I didn't expect her to be in tears or anything. Instead, she just looked at my mother and said "I don't know what to do" with the calmest expression you could imagine. It's amazing just how varied we humans are. If someone I loved was knocking on death's door, I'd be a basket case... and then I know people who would struggle to keep their emotions under control.... and now my grandmother shows me something I've never seen before. During this time of distress, she doesn't become emotionally unstable, she became emotionally lost. What do I feel right now? Pity. I never got along with my step grandfather, but I acknowledge that my grandmother loves him. I feel bad for her, but I don't feel anything else otherwise, save for the compassion that is owed to any fellow human that will soon depart. Whether or not we got along, he's in my prayers.