(secretly) I turned around (to love you)
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Originally uploaded by Foxtongue. Start Again: Blue haired calling. Blue haired, one-eyed. Wisdom like a bitmapped earth, programming the tree to find all the answers. Breaking fast with genius, reminiscent of the night before the night before, lasting impressions of that would be really great, that would be enviable, let's spread disease through the pommels of guns. DNA discussions, eggs on the plates, grasping for a cure to AIDS. We walk to Broadway with time still left in our pockets. We sit where I sat last Sunday. Half a million dollars at this meeting, I got to go. People walking past, strangers with bags, with different coloured jackets. It's winter time.
Work is a back-seat exploration into self-pity glad I don't know how to drive.
Start: Missed rehearsal, missed Sophie. Very simply missed my walk to the bus-stop. Missed a bit of everything. My eyes were closed. Open now, the phone rang. My directer, in a panic. Fluster and worry, flashing to life, spending the night. The telephone, answering questions, reassurances. Exhaustion trying to claim me back but now I'm awake. I'm got left-over chinese food on the stove, I'm going to be a gourmand's nightmare. Toss it all in one pan, toss it all around with a fork, drip out the grease and call it food. I've got creases on my belly where my clothing pressed too tight in my sleep.
Work is a multi-lingual dull burning drive into why am I not done yet with this?
Start a year ago: His hair is tied in a kerchief, nothing imagined, but I like it. This is cotton street. Blue print patterns, every line a perfect curl. Cleaning, I found him in a photograph, behind me. I was so sad, corsetted and dismal. I can feel the black behind her eyes, I am surprised. I'd forgotten the day. How my love would not come to my show. Instead, this one crept behind me.
The door opens, I am blinded.