hmmm.....
It's getting to0 hard to just smile through the pain right now. I'm hiding feelings that that are ripping me apart, just so people wont accuse me of being an emo bitch, or a downer. I don't think anyone undestands at all. Everyone only cares about how happy they are, and not about anyone else's cares. Heaven forbid someone should be down, and affect their mood, because then it comes time to criticize them for being down. So I go on smiling through the pain and tears, just to please everyone. but it is tearing me apart inside. I can't do anything without it reminding me of her. And she doesn't care at all. She's happy with her new little life, while I'm here to pick up the peices of what was my happiness. Funny how that works. I don't know how much more I can take of this...