maybe I should hate you for this, I never did really quite get that
I am so lost.
I'm back in my self-loathing kind of mood. it's been back for a while, but I've been giving it the middle finger....it's not going away.
I'm so confused about what I want my life to be. normally, I wouldn't care. but I can't keep doing that.
I need a change. I need to do something drastic. but there's nothing to do. it's times like these that make me want to start smoking again. but hey, if I can quit that, I figure i can do anything. i just wish i knew where to start.
I want to be able to wake up in the morning, and actually like what I see. I want to like who i am, or who i've become. I haven't figured out what I am yet. god, I'm confused.
I'm rambling....
and to top it all off...I get to go camping this weekend! yay....not. my mom doesn't seem to care that one of the top things on my "hate list" is camping. but will she let me stay home? of course not. that would be too easy.
I just want to stay in bed until I get my shit straight....or whatever I'm doing.
I'm back in my self-loathing kind of mood. it's been back for a while, but I've been giving it the middle finger....it's not going away.
I'm so confused about what I want my life to be. normally, I wouldn't care. but I can't keep doing that.
I need a change. I need to do something drastic. but there's nothing to do. it's times like these that make me want to start smoking again. but hey, if I can quit that, I figure i can do anything. i just wish i knew where to start.
I want to be able to wake up in the morning, and actually like what I see. I want to like who i am, or who i've become. I haven't figured out what I am yet. god, I'm confused.
I'm rambling....
and to top it all off...I get to go camping this weekend! yay....not. my mom doesn't seem to care that one of the top things on my "hate list" is camping. but will she let me stay home? of course not. that would be too easy.
I just want to stay in bed until I get my shit straight....or whatever I'm doing.