get me outta this place
i dont even know how to explain my day today. it was so fucked and random that its gotta be point form...
8:30am - i almost miss the bus that takes me to yorkdale to get to my bartending class... i end up running with all this shit in my hands, looking like a crazy person that i thought only exsisted in movies and on tv.
10:30am - start class which goes awesome becuase everyone was using me as some kinda study guide lol. ive been mixing drinks for people ever since i started the class so i guess it just kinda stuck. good thing for me when it comes time to write the test [eek].
4:00pm - our teacher tells us to pay $5.00 and we can drink as many different shooters as we want, regardless of how old we are [speaking for an underagers point of view lol].
7:00pm - after going home and changing i went to dans house... of course, good times as always. we went and got milkshakes [yummy].
11:00pm - i get the scariest call from my mom telling me somethings wrong with my sister so to come home as soon as i can.
11:30pm - i get home in a crazy panic cause im worried about my sister and my mom tells me that we need to talk... dun dun dun. when parents say that, it can never be good. so my mom lied to me about my sister to get me home, then she starts telling me shes worried about me and that she doesnt 'approve' of me and dan because he rarely comes here. she thinks that hes made me grow a 'chip' on my shoulder and lose some sense of 'family values'.
so yah... needless to say... a very up and down day for me.
fuck my mom tho. honestly... me and dan have been together for over 6 months and i think that by now if he were some kinda bad guy er bad influence, i would realize. she tells me im the smartest person i know yet continues to tell me that she thinks im making a huge mistake and that im sacraficing too much for him [keep in my im sacraficing absolutly nothing]. he rarely comes here becuase his friend just moved in with him and now this makes the two of them a package deal. you want one, you get both. i have no fucking 'chip' on my shoulder and the only sense of family values that ive lost is my dad. what the hell does she fucking expect. my dad moved out a few months ago and she expects me to be all peachy and shit. fuck that. she tells me nothing thats going on, she watches every single little thing i do, whether it be the way i eat or the way i put on make up. i leave our house and go to dans house to find the closest form of normalcy [is that even a word??] and to find an actual family. im happier now with him than ive ever been and she has to fucking make me feel some sort of guilt for feeling this way. she has no right to do that. hes tried to get to know her but she wont take it. shes a hypocrite. i never thought i would acutal say this, but i cant wait for school so i can move out.
xo;
8:30am - i almost miss the bus that takes me to yorkdale to get to my bartending class... i end up running with all this shit in my hands, looking like a crazy person that i thought only exsisted in movies and on tv.
10:30am - start class which goes awesome becuase everyone was using me as some kinda study guide lol. ive been mixing drinks for people ever since i started the class so i guess it just kinda stuck. good thing for me when it comes time to write the test [eek].
4:00pm - our teacher tells us to pay $5.00 and we can drink as many different shooters as we want, regardless of how old we are [speaking for an underagers point of view lol].
7:00pm - after going home and changing i went to dans house... of course, good times as always. we went and got milkshakes [yummy].
11:00pm - i get the scariest call from my mom telling me somethings wrong with my sister so to come home as soon as i can.
11:30pm - i get home in a crazy panic cause im worried about my sister and my mom tells me that we need to talk... dun dun dun. when parents say that, it can never be good. so my mom lied to me about my sister to get me home, then she starts telling me shes worried about me and that she doesnt 'approve' of me and dan because he rarely comes here. she thinks that hes made me grow a 'chip' on my shoulder and lose some sense of 'family values'.
so yah... needless to say... a very up and down day for me.
fuck my mom tho. honestly... me and dan have been together for over 6 months and i think that by now if he were some kinda bad guy er bad influence, i would realize. she tells me im the smartest person i know yet continues to tell me that she thinks im making a huge mistake and that im sacraficing too much for him [keep in my im sacraficing absolutly nothing]. he rarely comes here becuase his friend just moved in with him and now this makes the two of them a package deal. you want one, you get both. i have no fucking 'chip' on my shoulder and the only sense of family values that ive lost is my dad. what the hell does she fucking expect. my dad moved out a few months ago and she expects me to be all peachy and shit. fuck that. she tells me nothing thats going on, she watches every single little thing i do, whether it be the way i eat or the way i put on make up. i leave our house and go to dans house to find the closest form of normalcy [is that even a word??] and to find an actual family. im happier now with him than ive ever been and she has to fucking make me feel some sort of guilt for feeling this way. she has no right to do that. hes tried to get to know her but she wont take it. shes a hypocrite. i never thought i would acutal say this, but i cant wait for school so i can move out.
xo;