May 05, 2006 03:32
i finally decided that this mike thing isn't working. he is constantly letting me down and carelessly hurting my feelings. i dont think he does it on purpose, but i'm tired of playing this game. i told him that he wasn't ready for anything with me. he's in a place where he cant give me what i need from him. i said that i deserve much better than how he's treated me these last few months. i know he can be a great guy, but he's just not doing it.
we are keeping our plans for valleyfair this summer, but i wont see him untill then. i am going to miss him, but hopfully he'll grow some in between now and then. maybe he'll be able to follow through with something. plus this amy thing really bothers me. they broke up but she is still around constantly. fuckin' weird. i've only been able to open up completely to 2 people ever and he is one of them. i hope it wasn't all a waste.
we will see what fate has in store for me this year.....