yet another horrendous valentines day!
i've only ever had one nice v-day, thanx to one special person of my past.
some people are blessed...everywhere they turn someone will love them. i am not one of those people. i seem to have found myself in this place again. i've fallen for someone, we weren't in love yet or anything, but just as i opened myself up to him, he shoved a grenade in my chest.
ok, i'm being melodramatic, but it's like working so hard to win this prize truffle. you finally get it, you put it in your mouth, only to find that it's filled with dog shit!
at least last time i had a chance to be happy with someone. he would have never treated me or any other person this way. i went to see him yesterday in hopes of getting some advice, seeing as he knows me better than anyone in this situation. especially after all this time, he probably has some perspective on it. anyways, he wasn't there. i still havent talked to any one about what happened.
i wish sunday night had never happened at all. but hopefully we can forgive and forget. i want to move on into a better understanding of eachother. i just feel so empty right now. i don't know how to act, i feel like such a spaz.
love sux!
some people are blessed...everywhere they turn someone will love them. i am not one of those people. i seem to have found myself in this place again. i've fallen for someone, we weren't in love yet or anything, but just as i opened myself up to him, he shoved a grenade in my chest.
ok, i'm being melodramatic, but it's like working so hard to win this prize truffle. you finally get it, you put it in your mouth, only to find that it's filled with dog shit!
at least last time i had a chance to be happy with someone. he would have never treated me or any other person this way. i went to see him yesterday in hopes of getting some advice, seeing as he knows me better than anyone in this situation. especially after all this time, he probably has some perspective on it. anyways, he wasn't there. i still havent talked to any one about what happened.
i wish sunday night had never happened at all. but hopefully we can forgive and forget. i want to move on into a better understanding of eachother. i just feel so empty right now. i don't know how to act, i feel like such a spaz.
love sux!