An open letter
Let's just call a spade a spade.
“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...” ― Elizabeth Gilbert
I found that quote about a month ago. I debated sending it to you but I didn't know how it would be received. I wanted to tell you thank you. For shaking my world up. A few times. You showed me things about my character I didn't like and didn't want to continue to do. Everything that happened over the past decade has taught me that I cannot keep entering into relationships being closed up, distant, and refusing to genuinely let a person in. I started 2013 with the goal of being open, honest, accepting that I could get hurt, but that I could never truly love a person unless I let them in, 100% in. Then I met Jordan. I never once even had to think about letting my walls down. They were just never there to begin with. You may have been part of the reason I was guarded. I built a lot of those walls with false promises you fed me. But I am so grateful for the experiences because they have led me to this man, and I could not think of a better match for my life.
I am so happy you have found the one whom your soul loves. I wanted to tell you congratulations but I didn't want you to see it as more than it is. I truly wish you both nothing but the best and a lifetime of happiness. I just thought you should know that I don't harbor any resentment or anger towards you. I may never understand your actions but I am so glad our paths led us to where we are.