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i am now going to be focusing a lot of my energy on getting my disgusting body back into shape. i wish i could just chop off everything that jiggles, including my breasts. i want small boobs again. wearing a tank top is just not the same anymore. i cant lean forward without shit spilling out. i don't like feeling "voluptuous". i feel extremely uncomfortable. i feel... obscene. round hips and fat thighs and jiggly breast- not for me! it's like, admitting to the world that i'm just a sack of estrogen. it's like an invitation for people to look at me as a sex object. my ideal body type would be slim all over, nothing sticking out (except for bicep and calf muscles of course) and nothing jiggly. i want my outside to match my inside. slender, angular, androgynous.