on living situation, and the mysteries of attraction

Mar 14, 2007 18:18

i seriously need to move out of this apartment. my family needs to get a nurse to move in here to take care of my grandparents downstairs anyways, and fuck if i'm sharing my domain with a stranger! i hate being made to feel guilty every night i spend out (they want someone here to keep an ear out for them at night). maybe i'm being selfish; my grandpop's in the hospital now, so i now have to be home when my g-mom's day-caregiver leaves and my mom isnt here...she can barely wipe her own ass... it HAS to be temporary. ugh. it's not my fault that my uncles don't help out my mom with everything more. i don't mind helping out here and there but i can't be grounded like this. just because my mom and I are female does not mean that all the caregiving duties should be left up to us. my mom works a stressful fulltime job as a teacher AND is with my grandmom every weekend, and now every day. she gets hardly any appreciation; my grandmom bitches at her, but when my uncles pop in every once in awhile it's like they're gods. Ha. that's not how things are going to be when i'm older and my parents are old. they better hire themselves some nurses if they can't bathe themselves or walk around. anyways.. i knew this apartment deal was gonna be temporary, because i won't be able to be here all the time and a nurse will def. be needed. i better start looking, and working more to afford someplace. but i'd rather live in a cardboard box than move back to the 'rents.

ok next subject...
I wonder if males have real emotions like women do.. are they even full humans? i wish i could find the answer to this question, because each encounter i have my faith in the opposite sex dies a little. will a guy (that i'm attracted to) ever cry and mope over me? will a guy ever feel heartbroken over me? will a guy ever go out of his way for not my ass, but my affection? will i always be attracted to disinterested, erm, assholes? HA. am i the only girl that feels this way? perhaps, someday, someone will prove me wrong. that a heterosexual man's attraction to a woman is more than her being "hot". as much as i am vain, i am sick of just being call "hot". what about smart, intriguing, creative, cool, kind, funny, etc? you boys think calling a woman "hot" is a compliment, when actually, it can be quite belittling.
Previous post Next post
Up