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I used to think that heartbreak was exaggerated...now i know its really not, its the worst fucking feeling in the world and i would pay millions to be rid of it. I am in half, I am not myself, and its so much worse because I wished for this. I once wished to be able to be independant, I wished to be able to have fun and feel like myslef all be myself. But I miss her.
I want her so much it drives me insane. No matter how much of a fun night out I have, i go to sleep thinking of her and wake up the same, with the same sickening feeling, that I done this to myself, and that I hurt her (its that I cant bear). I wish I was him. I wish I could satisfy her. i wish I could make her laugh like I hear them, night in, night out, here or there (it doesnt go away). Im told this doesnt last for long but im scared it will, because I know I cant stop loving her that easy. If I had her now, in my arms, safe and sound, I would tell her that I will be there, by her side, through anything, that i would support her dreams no matter how challenging (if you wanted to go to the moon I would back you on it). I would tell her that because its the truth, we are meant to be. I would hold her tight and tell her that she would never want for anything, ive learnt my lesson and I want her to be happy, that is all, ever. Id fucking die for that beautiful girl. No love can be stronger than this...im quite sure of that.
I know she doesnt feel the same.
I want her so much it drives me insane. No matter how much of a fun night out I have, i go to sleep thinking of her and wake up the same, with the same sickening feeling, that I done this to myself, and that I hurt her (its that I cant bear). I wish I was him. I wish I could satisfy her. i wish I could make her laugh like I hear them, night in, night out, here or there (it doesnt go away). Im told this doesnt last for long but im scared it will, because I know I cant stop loving her that easy. If I had her now, in my arms, safe and sound, I would tell her that I will be there, by her side, through anything, that i would support her dreams no matter how challenging (if you wanted to go to the moon I would back you on it). I would tell her that because its the truth, we are meant to be. I would hold her tight and tell her that she would never want for anything, ive learnt my lesson and I want her to be happy, that is all, ever. Id fucking die for that beautiful girl. No love can be stronger than this...im quite sure of that.
I know she doesnt feel the same.