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I just really want to be left alone. For quite a while.
My mom's starting in on this crazy crap again, and I just realized that I don't even know why Jen got mad at me in the first place, as in last Wednesday. Which is kinda funny the more I think about it. I re-read what we've written and it's like we're being biznatches just because we feel like being biznatches.
Maybe I should of just stayed a loner, which made my life a little easier, or maybe I should of just grabbed my dad's 9mm 4 years ago and pulled the trigger like I wanted to.
I didn't think that trying to have a friend would hurt this much. And I don't even know why she got mad in the first place. And I didn't expect her to say that we weren't friends anymore that quickly, especially since I don't hate her or anything. I got mad because she was being mean for a reason that was not explained to me fully. This is all so stupid.
My mom's starting in on this crazy crap again, and I just realized that I don't even know why Jen got mad at me in the first place, as in last Wednesday. Which is kinda funny the more I think about it. I re-read what we've written and it's like we're being biznatches just because we feel like being biznatches.
Maybe I should of just stayed a loner, which made my life a little easier, or maybe I should of just grabbed my dad's 9mm 4 years ago and pulled the trigger like I wanted to.
I didn't think that trying to have a friend would hurt this much. And I don't even know why she got mad in the first place. And I didn't expect her to say that we weren't friends anymore that quickly, especially since I don't hate her or anything. I got mad because she was being mean for a reason that was not explained to me fully. This is all so stupid.