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I'm really, really tense, because starting tomorrow, I will once again become a super nerd. I shall have no life this semester, because I need to bring up my GPA so that I can keep my scholarship. I need all the free money I can get for Agnes. It's so freaking expensive.
It's so weird though. It's as if I'm finally starting school. I guess going back to my nerdy ways scares me a bit. Actually, I'm dreading it. But I'm going to give it my best shot. Hopefully, I'll get my act together so that I can get a weekend job that won't hinder my studying.
But I think what's been worrying me even more is how I'm going to deal with the drama that I know will ensue. I mean, I had a breakdown last semester because of school stress added on to friend/boyfriend/family stress, and I will shoot myself with my dad's 9mm before I let that happen again. So, this time, I guess all I have to say is that I won't be able to do stuff all the time anymore. When I get home from Japanese, I will not have any desire to bust my butt and go back into that traffic. On Fridays and Saturdays, I hope to be working and cleaning up. On Sunday afternoons, I will prepare for Monday and sleep.
So I'm sorry if it seems as if I'm telling everyone to get away from me, because I'm not. I just know how much I have to work at this school now, and I can't screw up.
But hopefully, I shall see people on Friday for the midnight showing of Underworld. Oh yessss.....
It's so weird though. It's as if I'm finally starting school. I guess going back to my nerdy ways scares me a bit. Actually, I'm dreading it. But I'm going to give it my best shot. Hopefully, I'll get my act together so that I can get a weekend job that won't hinder my studying.
But I think what's been worrying me even more is how I'm going to deal with the drama that I know will ensue. I mean, I had a breakdown last semester because of school stress added on to friend/boyfriend/family stress, and I will shoot myself with my dad's 9mm before I let that happen again. So, this time, I guess all I have to say is that I won't be able to do stuff all the time anymore. When I get home from Japanese, I will not have any desire to bust my butt and go back into that traffic. On Fridays and Saturdays, I hope to be working and cleaning up. On Sunday afternoons, I will prepare for Monday and sleep.
So I'm sorry if it seems as if I'm telling everyone to get away from me, because I'm not. I just know how much I have to work at this school now, and I can't screw up.
But hopefully, I shall see people on Friday for the midnight showing of Underworld. Oh yessss.....