my daddy
well friday morning....me, angie, and crystal went to talk to my daddy about going and getting treatment.....and after some talking to and a counseler coming in to talk to him.....he went(thank god!!!)....and so he packed his stuff and angie went to get my mom at work so she could say goodbye to him and then we went.....there is only 4 times in my life i have ever seen my daddy cry and friday was one of them and i know we have had a hard life loosing so many people so close to us(nanny, papaw, and brittany)but friday was the hardest day of my life........well when we got there we had to sign in and then came the waiting.....we had to wait like for fucking ever!!!!! and that was so gd hard!!!(knowing he was going to be gone so long and he had to go through detox alone), but b/f we left my daddy drink a whole pint and took three halves of a xzanax bar....so when we got there he was pretty fucked up(which is why he went) but after a while he sobered up and was ok....but very quiet and he cried some....slept some and just did what they told him to....it took us from 8:00am to like 2:00pm just to sign him in and get him to his room.....i dunno why they do it that way but whatever.....so yea this weekend was the worst weekend i have ever had and that is pretty sad!! then it didn't get any better....we get to visit him on saturdays....and since we put him in there friday.....we got to see him the very next day....whuch was just as hard.....by that time he was very mad/depressed and really did not want to be there...and everything he was saying was bad shit about the place.....but they told us he would do that b/c he wants us to tell him he can come home...but he can at anytime...but we will have to pay like $9000 b/c the insurance will drop him if he does not finish the whole program.....but now they have him doing a lot of things with his day and he told my momma last night that he was glad he was there.....and she started crying b/c she was happy to hear that b/c we really thought that he was going to keep saying those bad things about the place and end up hating us for putting him thre....and let me make it clear now....WE DID NOT MAKE HIM GO.....HE WENT ON HIS OWN.....all my aunts and uncles think we did...but WE DID NOT.....but i don't care wtf they think, they have not cared shit about him or if he gets help at all b/f now so they just need to fuck off and let us take care of him.....but sat. we are all gonna go see him, but this time chris and david are going also b/c my daddy wants them there(my daddy has no sons, so jeff, chris and david are just like his sons)but i hope....(and i really think it will)...go better than last week...but then he had only been there for one day...and he was on a lot of valum's(how ever you spell it)where now he is only getting them every 8 hrs b/c they help his detox go better and not to be as sick...which it hasn't happened yet....but it usually takes like 3 or 4 days for some reason.....i thought it would be sooner.....but i dunno....he is on meds for it so i hope it won't be so hard on him....plus he can't throw up a lot b/c of that band in his stomach that helped him lose weight will slip and he will have to go to the er for surgury to fix it and he could start himeraging(can't spell!!)but yyeeaa.....i will keep updating for who ever is reading this and cares......im out....