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I guess I could say that ive been busy lately..but it doesn’t really seem like it. Monday I went to Jill’s for the 4th of July party. It was okay. When it was actually sunny I basically hung out with Jennifer and Tori. Then it started raining so we all had to come inside and it wasn’t cool. Emma was there and so I got to talk to her which was sweet bc I haven’t talked to her in such a long time! And I hung out with Vic basically the rest of the night…but the fireworks were cancelled so Jillian’s family just shot their own off. Also, Erin came to visit me for a few over there while her and her friends were driving around. I really miss her. Steve was there….and so was Kristen….and yeah I definitely wanted to go home. It was a weird feeling. I don’t know how to explain it but it wasn’t very sweet-at all.
why do i miss you so much when i was the one who didn't do anything and all you did was hurt me..i should be happy that your gone but when i realize it- you were all that i wanted..
Tuesday-Friday I had volleyball camp at Schoolcraft. Dana came with me so it wasn’t too bad. This one girl was soooo annoying and didn’t know anything it was awful! But then funny, cuz no1 can be like that…haha Dana and I created our awesome hardcore “rock” band with the chimes and tambourine and cymbals and stuff lol. And somehow we always heard the same 4 songs either driving there or home-it was funny. I found out my MVP coach Kelli has mono- I feel bad for her!
Tuesday- I went to Kyle’s with Brittni and we met the neighbors Taylor and Jeremy. They’re cool. We totally raided Taylor’s room it was hilarious. I had a lot of fun.
Wednesday- Jeremy and Kyle came over at like 9:30 and we watched Coach Carter. I was soo tired im surprised I stayed awake! But it was a good movie.
Thursday- I talked to Lissy on the phone basically the whole day! It was nice! At night I went out with John driving around. We went to Home Depot (great fun…ha) and Kroger’s which actually was really funny!! It started POURING out when I was driving home and I couldn’t even see it was horrible lol but I managed cuz I am just THAT sweet!
if you look inside a girls heart you’d see how much she really cries ; you’ll find secrets hidden best friends & lies ; but what you’ll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothings right & everything’s wrong.
Today (Friday)- Volleyball was actually fun. We got some awesomeeee PINK t-shirt baby! Yessss haha another shirt…cuz I don’t have enough?! Lol. When I got home I took like a 4 hour nap basically and watched tv. Then I talked to Lissy and Kyle on the phone for a bit and now im about to go watch some more tv bc im still super tired. I think something is wrong with me; I feel just bored with life. Like nothing is real stimulating really- just bored with being home, bored with my friends, bored with just the normal everyday things… I don’t know what to do and some of my friends and my mom and such are all asking me what is wrong and I don’t know what to say- nothing is really WRONG but nothing is really RIGHT. It feels like my only friend really is Alyssa. I just miss the way things used to be when everything was cool. I feel like im losing my 2 best friends and that I don’t even mean anything to them anymore and that they don’t even care that we don’t talk that much or hang out anymore and it makes me really sad. And I hate talking to people about it because I don’t know how to say anything and its like I have nobody to talk to anyways. And I hate it when everybody else goes online and is all like “uhh so depressed my life sucks I hate it” and stuff so I would be a hippocrit if I went and did that…and that never gets anybody anywhere because nobody really even cares. So I just write it in here because I have nothing else to do…
TOMORROW IM HANGING OUT WITH LISSY ALLLL DAY AND SPENDING THE NIGHT OVER THERE!!!! YEAHHHHHH IM SOO EXCITED!!! WOOP WOOP! LOL
((yess..one thing I actually am excited about!))
you cant see im hurting
you dont notice the pain
it feels like everyone else
is sitting in the sunshine
while im drowning in the rain