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So since my manager has been "let go" things have been GREAT AT WORK!!!! I don't feel so pissy, I don't feel so violent; I'm HAPPY at work again.
My Employee Review is on Tuesday morning... the same day that Manders starts working at the firm!!! :-) I'm so happy that she's employed, because that means she can get back on her feet after the sudden lack of employment. And it makes me feel so good that I helped her find the job. :-) Let's just see if she can hack it.
I mean, it isn't like my kind of work is hard- monkeys can do it- but it's stressful and tedious; taking a lot of caution and detail to do what I do. My job, after all, is to produce paperwork that will take someone's money away from them- and if that paperwork isn't right, my company loses money, and the clients get mad; and when the clients get mad, there's a problem.
I'm just so nervous about this review. It's really important that it goes well, because I really need some kudos here. I've gone years with "You're doing OK- just do everything 100% better than you've been doing them, and you'll be able to keep your job." This job, though, I'm VERY good at. And my Director has told me that she loves the fact that I pay so much attention to the detail of the work, and am sending out QUALITY along with QUANTITY (when it comes in, of course). She brags about me to other managers, Client Liasions, Upper Management.
I think this means what I hope it means. But I can't get too excited over this- it's just a performance review, and my money review (raise time) won't be until June-ish... but if this one doesn't go well, then I won't be seeing that extra money anytime soon.
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Mom has started complaining about my paying the bills. She's right, I've been slacking. And it's horrible because she's co-signed both a credit card and my car loan. I can't mess up her credit, so I have to buckle down on that and take some responsibility.
So- I'm going to try really hard and become an adult. I mean, a full fledged responsible person. Granted I will still be living at home, which sucks more than you can imagine. But I have to rebuild my credit and pay off these bills on time for a while before I can even think about an apartment of my own.
I would need a substantial tax refund and an incredible raise in order to make some sort of an improvement. Because here's what I would do:
1- pay off the credit cards entirely.
2- make larger payments to my car and student loans.
3- put away a nice chunk to save and accrue some sort of interest into a kind of high yield savings account.
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My goal is to be out on my own and financially under control by the end of 2007. That way I can just work on other things by the time it comes time for my high school reunion (like getting my BACHELOR'S DEGREE and being working on my Masters!!!) Hopefully by then I'll have regained my once envious drive and motivation for success and prestige among others.
In some ways, I'm beginning to find some strength in myself in what I do at work now. I depend on myself (mostly), and do what I have to in order to get the work out. If that means working a zillion hours, then so be it- I work a zillion hours. But I'd rather have all the work done and, for that matter, DONE WELL, than just do the bare minimum and not get noticed.
I want ATTENTION, damnnit!
OK... I guess it's time for bed, seeing at it's midnight. I have a lot to do tomorrow-
1- Organize all my paperwork and pay my bills.
2- Purge my collection of books and movies.
3- Purge my cosmetics and beauty stuff.
4- Find somewhere to have the dresser, carpet and bookcase that I no longer need in my room moved elsewhere in the house. :-) They take up too much space in my already cramped room- I want SPACE in my little hole!!
5- Get a LOT of sleep so that I may start this work week our early and fresh (I'm feeling a 15 hour workday on Tuesday).
Hopefully sometime in the near future I can make a trip down south... or my friends could even come up north... but I have a feeling that this cannot be so, for my job is stressful, I have no money to travel, and my friends are all too busy to come up for a weekend (and I would have no money or space in my parent's house to lodge them). :-(
Ugh... things to ponder over... Night!
My Employee Review is on Tuesday morning... the same day that Manders starts working at the firm!!! :-) I'm so happy that she's employed, because that means she can get back on her feet after the sudden lack of employment. And it makes me feel so good that I helped her find the job. :-) Let's just see if she can hack it.
I mean, it isn't like my kind of work is hard- monkeys can do it- but it's stressful and tedious; taking a lot of caution and detail to do what I do. My job, after all, is to produce paperwork that will take someone's money away from them- and if that paperwork isn't right, my company loses money, and the clients get mad; and when the clients get mad, there's a problem.
I'm just so nervous about this review. It's really important that it goes well, because I really need some kudos here. I've gone years with "You're doing OK- just do everything 100% better than you've been doing them, and you'll be able to keep your job." This job, though, I'm VERY good at. And my Director has told me that she loves the fact that I pay so much attention to the detail of the work, and am sending out QUALITY along with QUANTITY (when it comes in, of course). She brags about me to other managers, Client Liasions, Upper Management.
I think this means what I hope it means. But I can't get too excited over this- it's just a performance review, and my money review (raise time) won't be until June-ish... but if this one doesn't go well, then I won't be seeing that extra money anytime soon.
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Mom has started complaining about my paying the bills. She's right, I've been slacking. And it's horrible because she's co-signed both a credit card and my car loan. I can't mess up her credit, so I have to buckle down on that and take some responsibility.
So- I'm going to try really hard and become an adult. I mean, a full fledged responsible person. Granted I will still be living at home, which sucks more than you can imagine. But I have to rebuild my credit and pay off these bills on time for a while before I can even think about an apartment of my own.
I would need a substantial tax refund and an incredible raise in order to make some sort of an improvement. Because here's what I would do:
1- pay off the credit cards entirely.
2- make larger payments to my car and student loans.
3- put away a nice chunk to save and accrue some sort of interest into a kind of high yield savings account.
---
My goal is to be out on my own and financially under control by the end of 2007. That way I can just work on other things by the time it comes time for my high school reunion (like getting my BACHELOR'S DEGREE and being working on my Masters!!!) Hopefully by then I'll have regained my once envious drive and motivation for success and prestige among others.
In some ways, I'm beginning to find some strength in myself in what I do at work now. I depend on myself (mostly), and do what I have to in order to get the work out. If that means working a zillion hours, then so be it- I work a zillion hours. But I'd rather have all the work done and, for that matter, DONE WELL, than just do the bare minimum and not get noticed.
I want ATTENTION, damnnit!
OK... I guess it's time for bed, seeing at it's midnight. I have a lot to do tomorrow-
1- Organize all my paperwork and pay my bills.
2- Purge my collection of books and movies.
3- Purge my cosmetics and beauty stuff.
4- Find somewhere to have the dresser, carpet and bookcase that I no longer need in my room moved elsewhere in the house. :-) They take up too much space in my already cramped room- I want SPACE in my little hole!!
5- Get a LOT of sleep so that I may start this work week our early and fresh (I'm feeling a 15 hour workday on Tuesday).
Hopefully sometime in the near future I can make a trip down south... or my friends could even come up north... but I have a feeling that this cannot be so, for my job is stressful, I have no money to travel, and my friends are all too busy to come up for a weekend (and I would have no money or space in my parent's house to lodge them). :-(
Ugh... things to ponder over... Night!