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Rosy the Red Dart has passed on. She was broad-sided by some Pastoral Psychotherapist Friday at 11:45 on my lunch-break. Stupid me for wanting to go out and get some cash so I could actually have a lunch to eat. All the more reason to promote starvation into my life- my self-nourishment only seems to get me into trouble.
So- the woman who hit me not only did exterior damage to my driver's side door and wheel well, but she also bent the front driver's side wheel about ten to fifteen degrees inward... which explains why I had such a hard time getting the car to go straight all the way back to work.
Her insurance company has been really nice, and got me a into a rental car three hours later. It's a nice one too, a brand new Dodge Stratus. It drives super smooth, and is like an orgasm on wheels. Haha I don't know. Sounded like the thing to say.
So yesterday (since my parents and I have come to conclusion that Rosy will cost a LOT more to fix her than it is to just put her down) my mom took me Car Shopping after work and showed me how to (hypothetically) chop off a car salesman's nuts with a spoon. Very fun. The first guy we met was a middle aged black man who was on his fourth day and desperate for a sale. What a sleaze. He kept hitting on me, brushing my arms with his hands, and trying to sell the car to my mom (when it's really me who's doing the buying). He showed me all the expensive cars on the lot that were just not up to par for me (let alone my price range) and tried to tell me that I would have to pay 6% financing on any car I chose to buy there (new or used). Needless to say we were not happy (and I was then in need of a shower).
The next place we hit up was a Saturn dealership. I didn't want something so much for looks, but I wanted some definite features and comfort for a pretty good deal- not to mention something with friggin airbags. So we tried this one car that just wasn't cutting it. The brakes needed to be replaced badly, it was in need of a tune-up, it had NOTHING electric (not even for adjusting the side mirrors) and it didn't ride well- and it was a 1999 where electric features (I thought) would have been pretty standard. And I was pretty freaked out when I had to slam on the breaks to stop when I was doing under 30. Not a good sign.
So we tried another one. And it was fantastic. It had less miles on it than the first one did (by more than half), it's a 2000, comfy, and just so much fun to drive. And it was only $2,000 more than the first one I drove. Needless to say I fell in love with the car and wanted to get it right away (but not without seeing what kind of offer they would give me first).
I told Dominic (the salesman who tried to schmooze with me by saying I looked 16 instead of 20) that I was interested in the car, needed it right away because my car was totaled by another woman and her insurance company is letting me keep the rental car through Monday night, but we would need to do some serious discussion as to how I would be able to afford it.
He then pulls over his Manager and tells me I can put a hold on the car through Monday night. Then I can come in Monday after work and let them know what's going on with the Appraisor from the Insurance company (*since he's supposed to be coming "sometime this week"*). If he doesn't come in Monday then Saturn will write me a promisory note in exchange for the car so I can leave with it on Monday. Not to mention they will knock $500 off of the price of the car. Then when the Appraisor comes and will most likely total the car and cut me a check, I can return to the dealership and give them the check as a Down payment on the car.
Now if the Appraisor does come Monday, and does total the car, then I can simply take the check and put the down payment on the car and still have the $500 taken off the price. And still walk away with a set of wheels. And still afford it. I have been assured monthly payments will be in the low 200s, which is a good thing. I can definitely pay that with my other bills (the credit card and the loans are going to make money matters really tight, though).
So- there you go. Kellye may have a "new" car by the end of Monday. I hope I do, because if not, I'm screwed.
I got an opportunity from Bed Bath and Beyond to keep my Health Insurance for a while. The only downer- I can't afford it what with the new car I have to buy. So- I have top wait to December to get my new Health Insurance so that I can go to the doctor.
The good news- I can still go. Mom has offered to help me pay for my Shrink Appointments and Prescriptions (which is nice- $250 for the docs and $375 for meds is quite a bit). So paying half of that is better than paying whole. So I can at least get some meds in my system SOON before I go on a total meltdown and become completely suicidal again. Because right now it's in waves... if it's a good day, eh- stay alive a little while longer. Bad day- plot ways of demise.
I can tell you right now that I do not like this Kellye. She needs to be locked up in a rubber room and put away. I've been fighting with her every single day for the past month, and it feels like it's been a losing battle. Right now, though, I feel like the Real Kellye. The Kellye who is genuinely happy with who she is (though she wishes she was perfect). The Kellye who cares about her health and making people happy, as opposed to the Kellye who has been more into self-gratification then anything else.
Yeah- I prefer Real Kellye. She needs to come back.
And also- I want to go to Lynchburg... soon. Very soon. Yes, it's my birthday coming up in just a couple of weeks and yes I would love nothing more to spend the weekend in the same town as my friends just relaxing and enjoying each other's company (and perhaps run out and get peirced again- gotta get a thrill in somewhere ;-) and give my mother a heart attack- it wouldn't seem right any other way haha). I know it'll be good for me, because that's where my best friend is, and I feel so utterly alone without her by my side. But some part of me says I shouldn't go, because the people I love most down there have so much on their plate. I don't want to inconvenience them at an academically challenging time just because I want to see them (no matter how depressed I've been. I don't think I could live with myself if I asked them to take time away from classes, GSS and work just for my coming down for a couple of days). I feel horrible enough for interrupting a gathering Krys was having at her Court by calling her and telling her about my accident- I probably shouldn't have, because hey- it's me, I get into accidents all the time. Nothing out of the ordinary. Just a regular day for me, I guess.
Bruce is getting sick of me telling him how homesick I am for her and for Lynchburg. He's offered to spend some time with me on my actual birthday, even. But I know he'll be busy most likely so I turned him down. There's no sense in my forcing him to spend time with me just because of a stupid thing like my birthday when he has important things like WORK and a SON to take care of. I don't ever want to be that selfish.
Anyway, time is up for me at the computer, and I have some serious cleaning and organizing to do when I get home. Then I can spend the rest of the day snuggled into my warm clean bed and just sleep until I have to work for another 6 days. The CA lawyers are coming bright and early tomorrow, and I need to be all nice and polished for them. My work area is clean and tidy. All my work is put away. Everything is labeled and has a specific place. And I have great co-workers that have been understanding about my mood swings, since I've been nothing but upfront and honest about my financial situation regarding meds. And I've been trying extremely hard to keep myself cool and collected no matter how angry, flustered or upset I want to feel (for sometimes no apparent reason).
OK. Off I go.
Krys, Kim, Sonya and the like- y'all are in my heart. I miss and love you all so very much. I think about you often and hope that you're all doing well. HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!! PLEASE CALL ME (even to leave a message, and since I can never seem to reach any of you without interrupting ). It's so boring up here without my friends. I wish you could come up here, so we can go to DC and have some WILD FUN!! I need some of that so bad right now, and I'm sure you guys could use a getaway. So- if you want, JUST CALL ME and we'll set something up!!!! :-)
So- the woman who hit me not only did exterior damage to my driver's side door and wheel well, but she also bent the front driver's side wheel about ten to fifteen degrees inward... which explains why I had such a hard time getting the car to go straight all the way back to work.
Her insurance company has been really nice, and got me a into a rental car three hours later. It's a nice one too, a brand new Dodge Stratus. It drives super smooth, and is like an orgasm on wheels. Haha I don't know. Sounded like the thing to say.
So yesterday (since my parents and I have come to conclusion that Rosy will cost a LOT more to fix her than it is to just put her down) my mom took me Car Shopping after work and showed me how to (hypothetically) chop off a car salesman's nuts with a spoon. Very fun. The first guy we met was a middle aged black man who was on his fourth day and desperate for a sale. What a sleaze. He kept hitting on me, brushing my arms with his hands, and trying to sell the car to my mom (when it's really me who's doing the buying). He showed me all the expensive cars on the lot that were just not up to par for me (let alone my price range) and tried to tell me that I would have to pay 6% financing on any car I chose to buy there (new or used). Needless to say we were not happy (and I was then in need of a shower).
The next place we hit up was a Saturn dealership. I didn't want something so much for looks, but I wanted some definite features and comfort for a pretty good deal- not to mention something with friggin airbags. So we tried this one car that just wasn't cutting it. The brakes needed to be replaced badly, it was in need of a tune-up, it had NOTHING electric (not even for adjusting the side mirrors) and it didn't ride well- and it was a 1999 where electric features (I thought) would have been pretty standard. And I was pretty freaked out when I had to slam on the breaks to stop when I was doing under 30. Not a good sign.
So we tried another one. And it was fantastic. It had less miles on it than the first one did (by more than half), it's a 2000, comfy, and just so much fun to drive. And it was only $2,000 more than the first one I drove. Needless to say I fell in love with the car and wanted to get it right away (but not without seeing what kind of offer they would give me first).
I told Dominic (the salesman who tried to schmooze with me by saying I looked 16 instead of 20) that I was interested in the car, needed it right away because my car was totaled by another woman and her insurance company is letting me keep the rental car through Monday night, but we would need to do some serious discussion as to how I would be able to afford it.
He then pulls over his Manager and tells me I can put a hold on the car through Monday night. Then I can come in Monday after work and let them know what's going on with the Appraisor from the Insurance company (*since he's supposed to be coming "sometime this week"*). If he doesn't come in Monday then Saturn will write me a promisory note in exchange for the car so I can leave with it on Monday. Not to mention they will knock $500 off of the price of the car. Then when the Appraisor comes and will most likely total the car and cut me a check, I can return to the dealership and give them the check as a Down payment on the car.
Now if the Appraisor does come Monday, and does total the car, then I can simply take the check and put the down payment on the car and still have the $500 taken off the price. And still walk away with a set of wheels. And still afford it. I have been assured monthly payments will be in the low 200s, which is a good thing. I can definitely pay that with my other bills (the credit card and the loans are going to make money matters really tight, though).
So- there you go. Kellye may have a "new" car by the end of Monday. I hope I do, because if not, I'm screwed.
I got an opportunity from Bed Bath and Beyond to keep my Health Insurance for a while. The only downer- I can't afford it what with the new car I have to buy. So- I have top wait to December to get my new Health Insurance so that I can go to the doctor.
The good news- I can still go. Mom has offered to help me pay for my Shrink Appointments and Prescriptions (which is nice- $250 for the docs and $375 for meds is quite a bit). So paying half of that is better than paying whole. So I can at least get some meds in my system SOON before I go on a total meltdown and become completely suicidal again. Because right now it's in waves... if it's a good day, eh- stay alive a little while longer. Bad day- plot ways of demise.
I can tell you right now that I do not like this Kellye. She needs to be locked up in a rubber room and put away. I've been fighting with her every single day for the past month, and it feels like it's been a losing battle. Right now, though, I feel like the Real Kellye. The Kellye who is genuinely happy with who she is (though she wishes she was perfect). The Kellye who cares about her health and making people happy, as opposed to the Kellye who has been more into self-gratification then anything else.
Yeah- I prefer Real Kellye. She needs to come back.
And also- I want to go to Lynchburg... soon. Very soon. Yes, it's my birthday coming up in just a couple of weeks and yes I would love nothing more to spend the weekend in the same town as my friends just relaxing and enjoying each other's company (and perhaps run out and get peirced again- gotta get a thrill in somewhere ;-) and give my mother a heart attack- it wouldn't seem right any other way haha). I know it'll be good for me, because that's where my best friend is, and I feel so utterly alone without her by my side. But some part of me says I shouldn't go, because the people I love most down there have so much on their plate. I don't want to inconvenience them at an academically challenging time just because I want to see them (no matter how depressed I've been. I don't think I could live with myself if I asked them to take time away from classes, GSS and work just for my coming down for a couple of days). I feel horrible enough for interrupting a gathering Krys was having at her Court by calling her and telling her about my accident- I probably shouldn't have, because hey- it's me, I get into accidents all the time. Nothing out of the ordinary. Just a regular day for me, I guess.
Bruce is getting sick of me telling him how homesick I am for her and for Lynchburg. He's offered to spend some time with me on my actual birthday, even. But I know he'll be busy most likely so I turned him down. There's no sense in my forcing him to spend time with me just because of a stupid thing like my birthday when he has important things like WORK and a SON to take care of. I don't ever want to be that selfish.
Anyway, time is up for me at the computer, and I have some serious cleaning and organizing to do when I get home. Then I can spend the rest of the day snuggled into my warm clean bed and just sleep until I have to work for another 6 days. The CA lawyers are coming bright and early tomorrow, and I need to be all nice and polished for them. My work area is clean and tidy. All my work is put away. Everything is labeled and has a specific place. And I have great co-workers that have been understanding about my mood swings, since I've been nothing but upfront and honest about my financial situation regarding meds. And I've been trying extremely hard to keep myself cool and collected no matter how angry, flustered or upset I want to feel (for sometimes no apparent reason).
OK. Off I go.
Krys, Kim, Sonya and the like- y'all are in my heart. I miss and love you all so very much. I think about you often and hope that you're all doing well. HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!! PLEASE CALL ME (even to leave a message, and since I can never seem to reach any of you without interrupting ). It's so boring up here without my friends. I wish you could come up here, so we can go to DC and have some WILD FUN!! I need some of that so bad right now, and I'm sure you guys could use a getaway. So- if you want, JUST CALL ME and we'll set something up!!!! :-)