are you there god? it's me daisy
i've been having many 'are you there, god? it's me margaret' moments.
seriously in depth ones that have been brewing for a handful of years now.
it's not that i don't have faith or that i'm having a crisis of faith per se. it's more that i'm not entirely sure anymore who god is and how to connect.
and yet i don't even know if that's it entirely either.
i'm so confused and overwhelmed and i feel like i'm on this deep-rooted search for the divine and that i'm maybe just trying way too hard.
i just want some big obvious answer. but i know it doesn't necessarily happen that way. i know it can and has for some. but in general it's a slow, often awkward awakening that can take years.
and even people that really feel connected in the path they've chosen (or the path that has chosen them) still can have times of uncertainty. i don't think faith is ever 'done'. or completed. it's a constant journey.
oh i just don't even feel like i'm making any sense. so how can i even know what i'm looking for if i'm not even sure myself?
"The worse thing that can happen to any of us is to have a path that's made too smooth. One of the greatest blessings the Lord ever gave us was a cross." ~Spurgeon~
seriously in depth ones that have been brewing for a handful of years now.
it's not that i don't have faith or that i'm having a crisis of faith per se. it's more that i'm not entirely sure anymore who god is and how to connect.
and yet i don't even know if that's it entirely either.
i'm so confused and overwhelmed and i feel like i'm on this deep-rooted search for the divine and that i'm maybe just trying way too hard.
i just want some big obvious answer. but i know it doesn't necessarily happen that way. i know it can and has for some. but in general it's a slow, often awkward awakening that can take years.
and even people that really feel connected in the path they've chosen (or the path that has chosen them) still can have times of uncertainty. i don't think faith is ever 'done'. or completed. it's a constant journey.
oh i just don't even feel like i'm making any sense. so how can i even know what i'm looking for if i'm not even sure myself?
"The worse thing that can happen to any of us is to have a path that's made too smooth. One of the greatest blessings the Lord ever gave us was a cross." ~Spurgeon~