kill me now
do you ever wonder what its like on the other side?....well i do everyday and it makes me want to cry ..espcially now when im all alone.i look in the mirror and i sit there and cry...but this time its different i dont have to do it any more...my pain will be over soon enough.... im sick of it all...sitting, in my house every night just about ...all by myslef with no one around it really is lonley when im all alone ....i jsut feel like im not important enough to be around..i mean my mom doesnt want me to be around she is always gone or doing something with my little brother...its jsut like i dont exist anymore.. i wish it wasnt so i wish i was important... but i guess all i will ever be is just the one child that was never right...the one that screwed up in everything ...the one the whole family hated and just didnt want around.. well im sorry i am a screw up im sorry im not perfect and im sorry i will never be the perfect daughter... i will never be like shawn or shannon or ryan.....im sorry ....................... i dont know whats wrong with me ...im shaking uncontrollably i can hardly breathe...im tingly all over.....someone help me