Discoveries
So as someone who once journaled nightly, I have amassed quite the collection of journals. There are a bunch in my nightstand. When I had Thoughts! at 6:00 this morning, I pulled one out and checked to see if it was blank. It was, so I wrote on the inside cover that it is notes for the book, and started writing notes for my story proposal in it.
Later today I realized that I had used it as a journal at one point, from the back cover in on accident. The date in the back cover says I started that journal on April 1, 2005. My breakdown was in March of 2005. That is when I got put on lamictal, which is the mood stabilizer that saved my life, but took away my words. I glanced through the journal entries and a couple entries in, I had started complaining of "a wicked case of writer's block."
The writer's block did not go away. It was finally broken about a month and a half ago- by writing Kulipari fanfiction. Which is now becoming a book.
Mind. Blown.