FUCK!............Idk what this one is about actually.....
Okay!
I'm a bit pissy now...
This morning my weight was 208Lbs
Then I ate a burger and fries..(I failed..v__v)
Then I immediately purged that.
Then I weighed myself after and it was 208Lbs still
So later on (Just now) I go weigh myself again
It said 211 I'm like wtf!
And I took the scale and put it in my room
So I just got up to check again
And it says 182Lbs. I'm like O.O WHAT?!
It can't be true
Stupid scale is broken again..Dx
I guess this WHOLE TIME My weight was wrong..
God dammit
I spent all my money(26$)
On coffee for me and my brother at Starbucks the other day
So I can't buy a new scale >:c
There's a fucking hurricane coming so I can't go on a walk... I'll go anyways..
I'm really upset. ;~;
When I get my weight to 180Lbs I would look way better :D!
I'm thinking of putting my picture up..
But nooooooo
I'm embarrassed by the chubbychubs. :c
Well no more eating for today.
I'm not sure if I'm doing good or not.
Btw 5 gum is amazing xD
Blahhhh well I should get a sketch book (Well I have one)
And put my stuffs in it
I had one full of quotes but my mom found it and was like wtf.
She only found it cause shes a bitch that rummages threw my things.
I hate it
I like my fucking privacy
When I tell her not to go through my shit she gets all pissed and says
"I can do whatever I want to you I own you"
Maybe thats why she doesn't give a fuck and smacks me whenever she wants. Cause she "owns" me
Thanks slave owner mom. :/
Anyways...I think I'll go 1 week no food. I know I went 4 days at most. (Last last month ._.)
I don't have long til my birthday/party(water park... swimsuit *shivers*)
I have decided to fast til then...
Sucks because I don't eat much in general
And when my best friend Sydney noticed my weight loss
(Shes a little smaller than me. She eats all she wants doesn't exercise and doesn't purge. But she is also taller so yeah.)
Anyways...she started to call me "The failed anorexic"
When i asked her why she said that she said "Because you i have never seen you eat more than a strawberry and you and chubby. Failed anorexic."
Nice friend huh?
Whatever...I'll get skinny and show her fat ass...
My fast starts June 31 to Passed July 15
About 16 days.
Honestly I'm nervous..
I hope no one notices xD
Good thing this laptop is mine
I have a password that locks it >:3
*Sneaky*