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i've started to pick up the pace with my AP portfolio, less than a month from the due date when everything has to be completed and photographed. my estimation is that out of the minimum of 22 pieces needed, i have about 15 or so finished, but not to my standards of college-level work. priorities? i care most about school right now, and being with jacque and cody. that's why i'm on my meds again. of course, every other part of my life is suffering and degenerating because i'm working harder in school. need the ganj... not bad or anything, just enough for me to notice that twinge of longing at least once a day or so. i finally know what i'm doing with myself. up until now, i fucked around because i thought this was all a bunch of bullshit. now i know what i'm doing. i have motivation, i have purpose. it's nice. i know what classes i'm taking next year, and all about my senior project. i have all my recommendation papers, i have my transcripts all lined up, i know my majors, i have my portfolio worked out, i'm focusing more and more. sometimes, i wish i could be a better friend, and figure everything out. my head is full of bizzare ideas, and i found out how to get them out. only two more months, then we're seniors, and the real world will be our world. it's hard to believe. i had to give the first damn improv speech yesterday. i suppose i did all right. i got applause.