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[poptartfiend]

i hope all of you are ready, for a good round of bitching from my part about my love problems. please don't tell me how much you all hate hearing this; no one comments anymore anyways. damn, i'm beginning to sound a lot like someone we all know... <.<... i think... in a relationship, we should be able to see our signifigant others more than once a

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[i_hate_kyle]

Goodness, marm. That was quite the lengthy bit of prose there. Antway (I know I typed "antway", but I went to fix it and realized that "antway" sounds really cool), I've experienced a few of these emotions, particularly the one about whether or not my other half is thinking about me in the same fashion that I think about them. I hate to say so, but oftentimes that feeling usually ends up with the realization that the other party isn't nearly as interested in you as you had hoped. I've only spoken to Cody once, so I'm not sure how this conflict would be resolved. He seems very withdrawn, and unwilling to emote in any fashion (sort of like me). I think the only way to find out if he feels that way is to speak to him. I've found (also from past experience) that the male party tends to be more interested in the female party, rather than vicey-versy. Just ask any of my past girlfriends (ha ha... you are one, so you should know...). This whole post is a tad cunfuzzling though. Your emotions tend to go around in circles, it seems. I think you just need to simplify the whole situation. It'll be much more easy to handle that way. Oh, and I like the bit about spastic mental vomit.

[msirocksmysoxs]

i'ma haff to agree with ChrisSteger on the whole thought process and spastic mental vomit. quite the sensory effect... antway (hah) i just thought i would indulge you in a little bit of the Kendra Joan philosophy. are you listening intently? no? good.
1. i stopped caring for just about everything
- I.E. i don't really care what other people (even significant others) think of me any more. i feel kind of bad for it, but i just don't care if i'm a bitch or a whore or just plain idiotic.
2. i just keep thinking "nothing is forever." i don't know why i've chosen this pessimistic point of view, it just seems to fit my life right now. as you've mentioned, and i quote, "i want to be with him, and i suppose that much is mutual. but does HE worry about ME the way I worry about HIM? does HE have ME in the back of his mind? does HE wonder what I'M doing at that exact moment, or think of ways to get to see ME?" i think both parts in every relationship has thought this at one point in time. the only person i can honestly say i've asked truly and sincerely how they felt about me, was jake. to be honest, i couldn't have been more happy with my answer. although it doesn't show at the moment because i am dating another, i love jake with all my heart, and i know for a fact the feeling is mutual.
3. i'm trying my hardest to do something creative when i'm sad or happy so i can capture my moment of emotion and keep it. i'll know why i did it, but the people looking at it wont. they tend to relate it to soemthing that has happened in their life. they don't generally try to delve into the life and philosophy of the artist. i guess they are just intimidated.

[poptartfiend]

wow. thanks for all the constructive response to my post! i do feel like my emotions are runnig around unchecked in circles. i keep coming back to the same point in my mind, and advance forward... only to find myself confronted with the same thought processes. oh, and i'm very proud of my 'spastic mental vomit'... it's a very good image for how i feel all of this comes out. i'm afraid that you are right, chris. that the fact of the matter is... i care way more about him than he does me. i feel like he hides things from me, and won't tell me certain things, and i open up so easily to him. i tell him everything; there are no secrets. and then i go 'round in my circles, worrying more about him than about myself, and writing frantic, poorly-constructed prose that shows off my disgusting writing skills. v.v ...ah, well... i'm so uptight, and he's so laid-back, we just make this good combination. but he's very introverted. and i feelvery vulnerable in this relationship.