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I was enjoying life till now.
Life sucks, seriously. I dont know what else to think. The high points only last so long, and then they are gone and it seems like I have to work far too hard to get them back. I want to find genuine happiness, that kind you get when you are with people you care about and you know they care too, where you can feel a high from them because you know they arent judging you and they always will be there. Ive had friends come and go, some stuck by, and Im so thankful for those. Some kinda faded away and I miss some of those a lot. I've gone through so much with some of those people and I cant help but feel some what responsible that we arent as close anymore.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that Im sad(sorry if that makes me some kinda pussy) but I really am sad, Ive had a lot of unfotunate things happen to me over the past couple days, weeks and years and having my car keyed last night kinda top it off. It made me realize a lot. First thing, why would anyone do that? Obviously I must of made them angry in some way. Last night I thought I was among friends and what I'm trying to say is once again something has happened to me that is going to be costly, and while I was among friends. WHY? This is what I got from it, I cant help to think that I got involved with the wrong crowds, because someone to have done such a thing needs to be low, so why am I involving myself with people who key other peoples car to get revenge...I dont fucking know.
I feel that I have wasted sooo much time making new friends and meeting new people when I had the only people that mattered in the first place and now they are gone. To those people, im still the same person, I may have changed in the middle, but I'm making a comeback. I want that high from my real friends once again.
And to the person who keyed my car, I pity you, I pity the trash you call your life.
Life sucks, seriously. I dont know what else to think. The high points only last so long, and then they are gone and it seems like I have to work far too hard to get them back. I want to find genuine happiness, that kind you get when you are with people you care about and you know they care too, where you can feel a high from them because you know they arent judging you and they always will be there. Ive had friends come and go, some stuck by, and Im so thankful for those. Some kinda faded away and I miss some of those a lot. I've gone through so much with some of those people and I cant help but feel some what responsible that we arent as close anymore.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that Im sad(sorry if that makes me some kinda pussy) but I really am sad, Ive had a lot of unfotunate things happen to me over the past couple days, weeks and years and having my car keyed last night kinda top it off. It made me realize a lot. First thing, why would anyone do that? Obviously I must of made them angry in some way. Last night I thought I was among friends and what I'm trying to say is once again something has happened to me that is going to be costly, and while I was among friends. WHY? This is what I got from it, I cant help to think that I got involved with the wrong crowds, because someone to have done such a thing needs to be low, so why am I involving myself with people who key other peoples car to get revenge...I dont fucking know.
I feel that I have wasted sooo much time making new friends and meeting new people when I had the only people that mattered in the first place and now they are gone. To those people, im still the same person, I may have changed in the middle, but I'm making a comeback. I want that high from my real friends once again.
And to the person who keyed my car, I pity you, I pity the trash you call your life.