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So, I got to see Josh a couple of days ago. It was... an experience.
It was sobering. Looking across the table from you to see a friend who used to be so spirited having a hard time wording sentences and just about ready to pass out from the morphine. And hearing him state his realization of the matter and how the odds are against him. And he's okay with that. He's at peace. He did tell me that he wish he had appreciated his relationship with God and his wife alot more before he came down with cancer. But to hear him say "terminal" in such a relaxed manner was somewhat awe-inspiring and all in the very same moment, quite sad.
He's one of those very few people I would consider family. We did so much together back in the day. Most of it quite mischievous... but also quite fun.
I remember after he got married, I was kind of bummed out that I didn't get to see him anymore... which was understandable... I was happy for him and his marriage, but I was bummed none-the-less. Lailey said something that just came to mind on that day I saw Josh. "Well, he's got someone else now to take of his needs. Not to say that you're no longer his friend or that you're any less important, but he has someone else that he NEEDS to give attention to and someone who gives him all the attention he needs. I'm sure later on in life something will come up where he'll need you again and you'll be close friends once again."
I wonder what she's up to these days anyhow? I wonder what most of you people are up to. What's up people?? Everyone well?
I did 130 crunches last night. My abs hurt. And it hurts to cough. And I have a bunch of crap in my lungs...
It was sobering. Looking across the table from you to see a friend who used to be so spirited having a hard time wording sentences and just about ready to pass out from the morphine. And hearing him state his realization of the matter and how the odds are against him. And he's okay with that. He's at peace. He did tell me that he wish he had appreciated his relationship with God and his wife alot more before he came down with cancer. But to hear him say "terminal" in such a relaxed manner was somewhat awe-inspiring and all in the very same moment, quite sad.
He's one of those very few people I would consider family. We did so much together back in the day. Most of it quite mischievous... but also quite fun.
I remember after he got married, I was kind of bummed out that I didn't get to see him anymore... which was understandable... I was happy for him and his marriage, but I was bummed none-the-less. Lailey said something that just came to mind on that day I saw Josh. "Well, he's got someone else now to take of his needs. Not to say that you're no longer his friend or that you're any less important, but he has someone else that he NEEDS to give attention to and someone who gives him all the attention he needs. I'm sure later on in life something will come up where he'll need you again and you'll be close friends once again."
I wonder what she's up to these days anyhow? I wonder what most of you people are up to. What's up people?? Everyone well?
I did 130 crunches last night. My abs hurt. And it hurts to cough. And I have a bunch of crap in my lungs...