After all... tomorrow is another day.
It comes and goes in waves and sometimes I'm surprised at how okay I feel. The morning was difficult and I had to wipe the tears from my eyes when the refridgerator delivery men came back to pick up the cell phone they had left behind. I've been talking constantly, although I'm not sure if I've said anything. Sometimes I get tired of talking, of mourning the end of something that wasn't, but I know it helps to talk through it and to say those things over and over so it no longer hurts to think about it.
I don't begrudge her and I don't dislike her for anything that didn't happen. I wish she had been more honest and straightforward, but I can also accept that she is shy and inexperienced in this sort of thing. I know that she is a good person and has a good heart and I don't believe she intentionally tried to hurt me. I will also refuse to believe that she never liked me, but I understand why she can't tell me that at some point, she did like me.
I will regret for a long time the fact that I didn't feel my mobile ringing that early August morning as was walking home. I will regret certain things I didn't do that evening, but I will always remember the good times we shared, the smiles and glances we exchanged and the gentle ribbing we dished out. I look forward to those good times returning and look forward to times like those that we shared before I left for Hong Kong and things got fucked up.
I could never bring myself to dislike you and I will always be your friend.
You've never been a waste of my time
It's never been a drag
Yours with love,
Kevin
I don't begrudge her and I don't dislike her for anything that didn't happen. I wish she had been more honest and straightforward, but I can also accept that she is shy and inexperienced in this sort of thing. I know that she is a good person and has a good heart and I don't believe she intentionally tried to hurt me. I will also refuse to believe that she never liked me, but I understand why she can't tell me that at some point, she did like me.
I will regret for a long time the fact that I didn't feel my mobile ringing that early August morning as was walking home. I will regret certain things I didn't do that evening, but I will always remember the good times we shared, the smiles and glances we exchanged and the gentle ribbing we dished out. I look forward to those good times returning and look forward to times like those that we shared before I left for Hong Kong and things got fucked up.
I could never bring myself to dislike you and I will always be your friend.
You've never been a waste of my time
It's never been a drag
Yours with love,
Kevin