Sep 11, 2005 10:34
I was rudely roused out of a sound sleep this morning by a phone call from a boy who is interested in me that I want nothing to do with. I know, I must sound horrible…but maybe if I explain a little you’ll understand.
This boy came into where my brother works and told Chad he had to tell him something, that he thought I was gay…strike one. It’s kind of a unwritten rule that you don’t out someone that you have the slightest inkling might not be out yet, I mean thank goodness I’ve been out to my family sense I’ve been in the fourth grade, but what if I hadn’t? he could have single-handedly ruined my life for the sake of what? After Chad informed him that it isn’t really a secret he went on to tell Chad how hot I was and how cute I was and asked Chad if I was single…and I don’t think it’s exactly a secret that I am that as well. So Chad gave him my number.
Well this boy called me and after hearing too many details about his life from Chad I got less and less excited about this new prospect at romance. He’s 22, which is a plus for me. I definitely want someone older than me even if it is only by a few years. He’s masculine which is also a plus because I have no desire to be romantically involved with someone who is more or equally feminine as I am… But once you get past these two details there really aren’t many more positives to be had. He lives in Turf trailer park…which would be fine by under certain circumstances. But he lives in Turf with 5 other people in the same trailer. And I probably could get past this detail if I knew he was living their temporarily or even with goals he wanted to achieve so he could do better for himself…but this is not the case. He has no job and no car…too more strikes to add to the list. I am someone who is very stable and has obtainable goals. Why on earth would I even consider dating someone who wasn’t equally stable or similarly stable as me? I’ve worked hard for what I have and I am just no willing to bring myself back down for the sake of satisfying my boyfriend urge. Aside from all these details he also refers to people who aren’t gay as straight girls or straight boys… What is that about?! Are we 12 and think being gay is something cool, like a fashion statement. I mean, silly me, but I see people as people, without the sexual preference title. It has never occurred to me to look at my friends and title them as their sexual preference and I don’t think it’s crossed their mind to title me as such either. It’s just rude and immature and I refuse to date someone who sees people differently based on their sexual preference.
And to top all of this he woke me up at 9am this morning…needless to say I didn’t answer the phone…