security stripped
Just when you though work couldn’t possibly get any worse than it already has been…you find out your boss and your supervisor have been brainstorming a list of all your faults. That’s right, today at a meeting my boss called to order for me she handed me a list of things I do wrong and that need improvement. Not only that but she proceeded to tell me that my supervisor helped her create it. And what’s more is that she went even further to explain that the reason I don’t get and don’t deserve respect is because I am doing these things wrong.
I’ve never felt more like week old shit that someone threw up on in my life. I just feel completely and utterly rattled to the core. All the things I thought I was doing correctly and going along happily thinking I’ve been doing my job well…it’s like the rug has just been ripped out from under me and there is no one there to pick me up. I mean…I feel like I’ve been thrown into this black pool of uncertainty…I mean, if I thought I was doing so well before how am I able to accurately judge that I am “making progress” on these things? My security is just gone. I mean, if my boss really wanted to see improvement couldn’t she have thought just a little harder and come up with a better plan of attack? I am going to retreat to my old ways of never being sure and having to ask everyone all the time if I am doing what I should be doing…back to having nightmares about work and being a bag of nerves…
I just hope once everyone gets what they want out of me from work they are happy with the end result…because they’ve destroyed me…
-John
I’ve never felt more like week old shit that someone threw up on in my life. I just feel completely and utterly rattled to the core. All the things I thought I was doing correctly and going along happily thinking I’ve been doing my job well…it’s like the rug has just been ripped out from under me and there is no one there to pick me up. I mean…I feel like I’ve been thrown into this black pool of uncertainty…I mean, if I thought I was doing so well before how am I able to accurately judge that I am “making progress” on these things? My security is just gone. I mean, if my boss really wanted to see improvement couldn’t she have thought just a little harder and come up with a better plan of attack? I am going to retreat to my old ways of never being sure and having to ask everyone all the time if I am doing what I should be doing…back to having nightmares about work and being a bag of nerves…
I just hope once everyone gets what they want out of me from work they are happy with the end result…because they’ve destroyed me…
-John