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So Cancun was fun. Lots of fun and dancing and drinking and sweating and swimming and sunburns... But it was over a while ago. School starts soon and with that comes an overly anxious feeling in the pit of my stomach. I can't mess up this semester and I really can't even get a C in anything. Not because I'm on academic probabtion or anything, but because I need to start focusing on my goals again now that I actually have some. Many things are going to change this fall, and I need to be ready to deal with that fact. I won't be participating as much in Cepheid (more because of how much many of the members' hypocracy irk's me than anything else), I will have a more stressful job than Kyoto though I will work less shifts. I will need to pay better attention to my relationships between both friends and family and I will need to stop dealing with as much nonsense and bull-shit as I used to. That especially means Brent.
Jarod might be moving out and giving his lease to someone else. I don't blame him. Brent is a terrible roommate and one of the most selfish people I've ever talked to. I have no problem being an acquaintance, but I really don't want much contact with that tool. Jarod only got the lease with him at the beginning of the summer because Brent bullied him into it. He still hasn't spent a night there because the place smells like cat piss and there is no privacy. Brent freely uses all of his stuff and helps himself to any food/alcohol Jarod brings over, especially when he isn't there and uses his room as a storage facility. He even tells people they can sleep on Jarod's bed/futon without even asking. Worst of all is that he complains about how Jarod is never there (would you? it smells like piss!) and when an issue is brought up about trying to better the living arrangements, Brent fervently tells Jarod how wrong he is and does nothing to better anything. Brent is the type of person who keeps track of how much people owe him and brings it up constantly to his benefit, but never acknowledges his own debts. For example, he still owes me almost $100 for alcohol he asked me to get to Kevin buy him for his housewarming party he threw in the fall. The reasoning he gave me for not paying up was "you got the wrong gin" (he never specified) and "not all the beer is gone". When I came to pick up the left over beer he'd already drank a considerable amount of it and told me it was a party foul to take what I pitched in. You can imagine how furious I was. It seems his philosophy on life is "It's ok to screw everyone else over as long as the person getting screwed over isn't me". And he treats Patricia like shit. I don't know why she's with him. But I could rant about that all day..... And it's really up to Jarod to figure everything out. Not me.
I need to get my social life back together. I just first need to figure out how I want to handle my social life in the first place. I miss my Lacy and our tarded adventures and I miss Thais and our bitching about how stupid people are and hanging out at Kevin's watching movies or going to Poet's. I just feel like everyone has moved on without me this summer. Also thanks to Brent's big mouth I'm still wary of people since extremely mean and hurtful things have apparently been circling about me ranging from how bad my relationship with Jarod is to how fat I've gotten as of late. I think Jarod and I actually have a very healthy relationship and while I know I have put on weight since last year, I know I'm not the only one and I don't think I'm unhealthy at all.
I'm not satisfied with where my life is, but I'm determined to change that. I just need a kick start.
Am currently in Chicago visiting the family, but will be back in a week. We'll see what happens....
Jarod might be moving out and giving his lease to someone else. I don't blame him. Brent is a terrible roommate and one of the most selfish people I've ever talked to. I have no problem being an acquaintance, but I really don't want much contact with that tool. Jarod only got the lease with him at the beginning of the summer because Brent bullied him into it. He still hasn't spent a night there because the place smells like cat piss and there is no privacy. Brent freely uses all of his stuff and helps himself to any food/alcohol Jarod brings over, especially when he isn't there and uses his room as a storage facility. He even tells people they can sleep on Jarod's bed/futon without even asking. Worst of all is that he complains about how Jarod is never there (would you? it smells like piss!) and when an issue is brought up about trying to better the living arrangements, Brent fervently tells Jarod how wrong he is and does nothing to better anything. Brent is the type of person who keeps track of how much people owe him and brings it up constantly to his benefit, but never acknowledges his own debts. For example, he still owes me almost $100 for alcohol he asked me to get to Kevin buy him for his housewarming party he threw in the fall. The reasoning he gave me for not paying up was "you got the wrong gin" (he never specified) and "not all the beer is gone". When I came to pick up the left over beer he'd already drank a considerable amount of it and told me it was a party foul to take what I pitched in. You can imagine how furious I was. It seems his philosophy on life is "It's ok to screw everyone else over as long as the person getting screwed over isn't me". And he treats Patricia like shit. I don't know why she's with him. But I could rant about that all day..... And it's really up to Jarod to figure everything out. Not me.
I need to get my social life back together. I just first need to figure out how I want to handle my social life in the first place. I miss my Lacy and our tarded adventures and I miss Thais and our bitching about how stupid people are and hanging out at Kevin's watching movies or going to Poet's. I just feel like everyone has moved on without me this summer. Also thanks to Brent's big mouth I'm still wary of people since extremely mean and hurtful things have apparently been circling about me ranging from how bad my relationship with Jarod is to how fat I've gotten as of late. I think Jarod and I actually have a very healthy relationship and while I know I have put on weight since last year, I know I'm not the only one and I don't think I'm unhealthy at all.
I'm not satisfied with where my life is, but I'm determined to change that. I just need a kick start.
Am currently in Chicago visiting the family, but will be back in a week. We'll see what happens....