lame ass is what i am!

[poppy_lovesyou]

so this may sound dumb but over the span of two days i have had a lot of time to think, and my conclusion is that im scared.not so much of girls, and also not of rejection but i dont want to hurt anyone including myself.i have had an easyer time talking to people and i guess thats good,but i get scared whenever i think of talking to the onee person that i need to talk to.i hate having problems that i cant take my own advise on.i love someone and want to be with her,as in boyfriend not that one guy who makes me happy.i mean i can deal with that but at the moment comitment looks very safe and promising to me.im sick of being every girls best friend.

any way i have spent the last 2 days i gulf breez with mu cuz's.i have hadd a great time ,i always do with them,but my fourth of july sucked so hard. i sat and sat and sat for hours with mu cousin ashley.then i drank a cup of coffie and watched the notebook(depressing)untill FIVE "O" CLOCK.then tonys girlfriend got fired today at EIGHT in the motha fockin mornin so he woke all of us(me and ash)up. then we ate mc donalds
:(,made me sick so now i feel like shit. so tonight i guess i will just get so fucked up that i call abbi at 2 in the A.M. and tell her how i feel.so all of you go and eat sleep and be merry mother fuckers and wake up tomorrow a new peson or something...

p.s.-do something profound you lazy ass hole!!!