Not Laziness
Cleaned my apartment today. I still have to dust and deep clean my bathroom. I'll do it Saturday. I believe that I am working and not on Sunday as I am usually scheduled.
Anyway, I came to a point of realization a few days ago when I went to Coffee Bean and Tea to draw. It was my day off and I spent about 3 hours there drawing...not much actually. I was trying to find something...some source of idea and inspiration. I came back to my old Deviantart and revived an old drawing hoping it would spark some idea or some series that connects to my work.
I honestly have so much unfinished artwork. It just bums me out that I can't get to it. I found that it's not laziness. Really. I have time to do other things which are not much important, such as watching movies, drama, online shopping, and even clean, apparently I have more time to clean than make art. So, it's really not my laziness.
I think I'm just fighting with myself. Thinking that my work already sucks before I even finish.
Perhaps...it's the source of medium I'm approaching it with. Of course I want to do the traditional way. Maybe I should start doing digital like I have always been thinking about.
Ugh, and don't get me started on my photography. I still need to develop film. It's so costly now...It is rather unfortunate that there are not many places that develop and print film locally :(. I have to find an independent studio in SD.
Anyway, I came to a point of realization a few days ago when I went to Coffee Bean and Tea to draw. It was my day off and I spent about 3 hours there drawing...not much actually. I was trying to find something...some source of idea and inspiration. I came back to my old Deviantart and revived an old drawing hoping it would spark some idea or some series that connects to my work.
I honestly have so much unfinished artwork. It just bums me out that I can't get to it. I found that it's not laziness. Really. I have time to do other things which are not much important, such as watching movies, drama, online shopping, and even clean, apparently I have more time to clean than make art. So, it's really not my laziness.
I think I'm just fighting with myself. Thinking that my work already sucks before I even finish.
Perhaps...it's the source of medium I'm approaching it with. Of course I want to do the traditional way. Maybe I should start doing digital like I have always been thinking about.
Ugh, and don't get me started on my photography. I still need to develop film. It's so costly now...It is rather unfortunate that there are not many places that develop and print film locally :(. I have to find an independent studio in SD.