Much better than before
I saw lights flickering from a distance as I drove home from work. I saw them dance briefly and it was not too long that I was interrupted by the street lights telling me to go. The summer nights has been hot and humid lately; my moods to appreciate the season is starting to cut short. I long for fall already. I long for the holidays to come welcome me as I'd delight in the festive moods. All I can do now is appreciate the summer as much as I can, while I grumble about the weather...
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It was funny how I came across a letter I typed to myself the other day as I was going through my photo albums, looking for things to take with me to San Diego. The letter I wrote was from 2005. I was 16 or 17 years old or so. It amazed me that I had the urge to write this letter. Only because even in junior high or high school, teachers would do assignments such this to write a letter to your future self. I remember my high school english teacher made us do this but I don't remember where that letter went actually...
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Stumbling upon this letter made me really reflect a lot of who I am and where I am today. I know that my faith was not apparent back in junior high at all but there was some questioning of faith regardless when I was younger. I knew for a fact there was something or someone bigger than me or the world itself and that I really can't do things on my own. I remember my motto or philosophy in my young adolescent life was, "I'll manage, I'll manage." I thought it was a good way to reassure myself to do things. I seriously thought I did not have to do things overly great but just enough to tell myself that I tried. I realized later that trying is not enough and that I should just go all the way or not at all. The mentality changed gradually when I got into college and I haven't thought of my motto until I read my letter. Till this day I believe that, "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."- Philippians 4:13. And that was about 6 years later I came to know Jesus and still growing my love and faith in Him.
I just feel astounded that things are falling into place, piece by piece, bit by bit in my life. I still worry about money, my future, my future love life, my family, and my health but I know that God has control. I have been letting him take control since the beginning of the year and he has brought things together much better than before. I am letting the grip I held onto my life loose and free and just let God take the drive while I enjoy the ride.
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"Yes, be bold and strong! Banish fear and doubt! For remember, the Lord your God is with you where ever you go."- Joshua 1:9
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It was funny how I came across a letter I typed to myself the other day as I was going through my photo albums, looking for things to take with me to San Diego. The letter I wrote was from 2005. I was 16 or 17 years old or so. It amazed me that I had the urge to write this letter. Only because even in junior high or high school, teachers would do assignments such this to write a letter to your future self. I remember my high school english teacher made us do this but I don't remember where that letter went actually...
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Stumbling upon this letter made me really reflect a lot of who I am and where I am today. I know that my faith was not apparent back in junior high at all but there was some questioning of faith regardless when I was younger. I knew for a fact there was something or someone bigger than me or the world itself and that I really can't do things on my own. I remember my motto or philosophy in my young adolescent life was, "I'll manage, I'll manage." I thought it was a good way to reassure myself to do things. I seriously thought I did not have to do things overly great but just enough to tell myself that I tried. I realized later that trying is not enough and that I should just go all the way or not at all. The mentality changed gradually when I got into college and I haven't thought of my motto until I read my letter. Till this day I believe that, "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."- Philippians 4:13. And that was about 6 years later I came to know Jesus and still growing my love and faith in Him.
I just feel astounded that things are falling into place, piece by piece, bit by bit in my life. I still worry about money, my future, my future love life, my family, and my health but I know that God has control. I have been letting him take control since the beginning of the year and he has brought things together much better than before. I am letting the grip I held onto my life loose and free and just let God take the drive while I enjoy the ride.
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"Yes, be bold and strong! Banish fear and doubt! For remember, the Lord your God is with you where ever you go."- Joshua 1:9