you're my favorite book to read
title: you're my favorite book to read
genre: mostly fluff
rating: pg
pairing: jiho x yukwon ; appearances of the others members of block b
summary: 26 little drabbles/moments between Jiho and Yukwon, following the alphabet.
you're my favorite book to read.
arms;
It's snowing outside and they're practicing some dance routine, just the both of them. It's nothing new ever since Minhyuk started dancing with his own crew because Jiho wants to get better at dancing and it's certainly not Jaehyo who would help him.
They're taking a break and Jiho takes a gulp of water when his eyes fall on Yukwon through the mirror. He is all sweaty and he can't help but to stare at his biceps and before he knows it, he is standing by the dancer's side, a hand on his skin.
Of course, Yukwon is startled and looks at him quizzically. Jiho mumbles a quick "you have nice arms," then shrugs and goes back to dance, unable to shake off the feeling of Yukwon's smooth skin under the palm of his hand.
bed;
Yukwon is laughing at something he watches on the tv, leaning against the headboard of Jiho's bed. Jiho, he, is laughing too although he feels a bit tensed because his friend is next to him on his bed in his apartment and Jiho can't stop thinking about kissing him and just what the fuck is wrong with him lately!
He doesn't know if it's because they've gotten closer these past few weeks or if he is just so desperate that he is attracted to guys now, but Jiho has long stopped denying that he really wants to kiss Yukwon. All kind of kisses, really, he often thinks about it, finding himself staring at those lips, wondering how they would fit against his then on his body.
Needless to say that Jiho doesn't invite Yukwon over in his apartment anymore if it means avoiding the dancer and keeping a distance of security.
clothes;
It's a mess in the dorm, they didn't clean it for days due to schedules and Jiho can't seem to find his favorite sweater. He accuses Kyung to have stolen it then each of the present members until Yukwon comes out the bathroom, wearing it. Jiho is left speechless for a second, barely registering Minhyuk who snickers behind him.
Yukwon doesn't ask if Jiho wants his sweater back but instead, he hands him over one of his sweater and the leader suddenly all but feels stupid when his heartbeat increases a little at the only thought of sharing clothes with Yukwon. Get a grip on yourself, he thinks and then spends the day annoying Kyung because that's the only thing he found to get his mind off a certain someone.
desire;
A few days later, they're all gathered into a changing room, stylists giving them clothes to try, hairstylists trying to do something with Taeil's hair and Jaehyo is somewhere talking about how soft his skin looks after he put on BB cream.
They are a bit late for the photoshoot so everyone is quickly walking around, squeezing themselves through the people and Jiho is taking his shirt off when suddenly, someone is pushed against his bare skin and there's a warm breath on his neck so he turns his head and-- oh, fuck. His nose bumps against Yukwon's and they stare at each other for two seconds which seems an eternity until the dancer is dragged away by some noona.
They aren't near each other during the photo shooting but Jiho feels his back buzzing with the memory of Yukwon against it and he just can't focus and it's becoming a serious problem.
encens;
More than a simple physical attraction, Jiho understands quickly that he likes his friend more than he should. He doesn't know how to deal with all of this but doesn't dare asking advice either because it's already confusing enough. He tries to stay discreet and keep himself busy, he doesn't want to think about his feelings even though it's not easy because goddammit, Kim Yukwon keeps finding his way through his mind even when he should be busy working. And he knows that if he suddenly becomes distant with him, people around them will start asking questions and Jiho hates it.
Which explains why he is currently being massaged by a girl whom he would have looked at and enjoyed the body if it weren't for Yukwon being next to him, body shining with coconut oil. Relaxing music is playing in the background and the candles are giving a soft glow to the room and Jiho just feels good. His head is turned to Yukwon and their eyes meet, gentle and sleepy and Yukwon smiles, Jiho mirroring it immediately.
It's probably because of the ambiance, they're both so relaxed and Jiho doesn't even think about anything but how content he is. He stretches his arm out and takes a hold of Yukwon's hand, barely registering the gasps of the women massaging them as he slowly falls asleep, never letting go of the hand he is holding.
flower;
They're all at a recording for a show, and it's fun, really. The guests are nice towards them and the boys are relaxed, there is no pressure. Jihoon keeps poking at Taeil, glancing at the pretty women and their long, milky white legs and their clevages, then he points at Kyung who is trying to look cool and kind of distant but they know, they definitely know that he tries to get their attention by laughing a little too loud, by glancing at the women every now and then.
Jiho notices too and he chuckles to himself but in his line of sight, there is Yukwon whom seems a bit off, lost in his thoughts. Minhyuk waves a hand in front of his face and Yukwon blinks then smiles, punching the dancer's shoulder playfully. Jiho's heart aches for a brief moment but they have to go back to recording the show.
Minutes later, the boys are given flowers, they have to give it to the person - woman - they find to be the prettiest. Jiho glances at Yukwon he just can't help it because the boy is pretty, his eyes, his cheeks, his cute, so cute and perfect nose and those damned lips. But he plays along, choosing one of the girls facing him, but they all look the same to him, same make up, same fake smile, same way of pouting, of acting innocent and cute. He internally cringes.
After they're done recording, in the backstage room there's Jaehyo getting a phone number and the guys go crazy, they're teasing and encouraging him. While the room becomes a mess, Jiho pulls out a flower he took at the end of the recording and places it on Yukwon's backpack.
(His heart skips a beat when Yukwon holds onto the flower in the van, his nose brushing against the petals.)
glass;
It's quiet. There's a wall and a window separating them. Jiho is at his usual place, sitting on a chair, fingers clicking on the mouse to add effects to the voices, to the beat. But nothing else is usual for the moment. The music has long stopped and he is staring at the recording room where Yukwon was a while ago. He sees his reflection in the glass but doesn't dare to look for more than one second.
He messed up. That's as simple as that. Everything went well at first, it was just the two of them and Jiho asked Yukwon to go sing something he wrote during the night. Something he wrote with the dancer in mind but it sounded like he was talking about a girl, and he got surprised when Yukwon made a remark. He asked if he was in love with someone, and Jiho didn't know what to reply so he just said no and something flickered into Yukwon's eyes.
The mood changed after this and Yukwon left, pretending that he got a text from Minhyuk and Jiho said nothing.
He just turned the music louder.
haunted;
Nothing much happens for a minute or so. They're in the dark and they don't move until something pops out from a corner and scare them to death. It's a mess, really: Jihoon's loud scream and laugh makes Jaehyo squeal and punch the closest thing to him, which is Kyung. Kyung then flails around and smacks Taeil in the nose without seeing anything and it's hilarious really, Minhyuk can't stop laughing although he doesn't feel really at ease when there is a breathe hitting the back of his neck. Jiho curses and is ready to hit anything getting close to him when two arms circles his waist and a face is buried against his shoulder. He immediately recognized Yukwon's familiar scent and touch and everything, and he freezes before he awkwardly pats the shorter boy on the head, secretly enjoying the moment.
Jiho understands then that Yukwon is scared of noises in the dark and, if coming to haunted house meant having Yukwon cling to him, then he'd gladly do a hundred of them.
illicit;
He is addicted, he craves for him. It's not good, it wasn't supposed to happen like this. Yukwon is like a drug, he is everywhere, in his mind, running through his veins, always wanting more, more, and more. He thinks that one day he'll get over it, it's not possible to forever feel like this and yet, one night, this night, they kiss.
And it gets worse, it turns into a game of stealing kisses when no one looks, of touching in front of the fans not so subtly, of showing and pretending it's not what it is. Jiho is even more surprised that Yukwon keeps on playing along and the tiny hope of something actually happening between them grows up and Jiho's smiles are wider, Yukwon is hugging back and all is great, he couldn't ask for more.
When the manager finds them making out passionately against a wall, he says nothing and just let them be, it was bound to happen anyway. Even if it's wrong.
judges;
It's about the two of them but there's five other guys.
Jihoon thinks that it's only fanservice at first. They came back from a year hiatus after all and the fans deserve it, to see them all close, even closer than they've ever been. But when it keeps happening, he is confused. He waits for the promotion of Very Good to end, because really, he trusts them, he knows they wouldn't do something bad. So, when the three of them - Kyung, Jiho and himself - are in the van to go to a hip hop festival, Jihoon can't help but to ask Jiho what the hell is going on, because it's like he is stuck to Yukwon. Jiho just smiles and pats his head.
Jaehyo only comments when they're at the dorm. He asks questions, he annoys them, but he doesn't get any answers because Jiho disappears somewhere outside and Yukwon sleeps early - or pretends to - and then Jaehyo whines to the other members but, most of time, he gets ignored.
Minhyuk and Taeil just observe, really. They aren't known to be the most talkative ones anyway. Even when they're alone with either Jiho or Yukwon, they don't talk about it. But they watch carefully, with gentle eyes, with knowing smiles.
And Kyung. Kyung does everything and nothing, he annoys Jiho and teases Yukwon. But he also doesn't push them together, he lets that happen because he is Jiho's best friend and when Jiho wants something, he'll do anything to have it. Kyung knows him, and he is surprised without being surprised. It's Jiho after all.
Jiho and Yukwon. Kyung laughs.
kiss;
Let's go back to a few weeks ago.
It's early in the morning and Jiho wakes up rested. He stretches his arms out and sits up then gets out his bed, a shiver running down his body when his feet touch the cold floor. He walks to the kitchen and chuckles as he sees Yukwon sitting up on the kitchen's counter, hair all messy from sleep and eyes squinted towards a bowl of cereal.
Adorable. Jiho really can't think of another word when Yukwon returns his greeting with a small smile and then, there's some milk on the corner of his pink lips and Jiho stares despite himself.
He doesn't blame sleep or anything when he settles his hips between the dancer's legs, when he wipes the drop of milk away from his lips with his thumb and then replaces it with his own lips.
It doesn't last more than two seconds until he pulls away but he already misses it and when he opens his eyes, Yukwon is blinking slowly, his breathe brushing against Jiho's mouth.
Jiho steals a few more kisses wordlessly, but is it really stealing when Yukwon returns each of the kisses? He doesn't really know. He is just aware that he likes it, a lot, too much.
They part when they hear the other members waking up and they go on with their day without talking about it. And then the next day and the next one until days become weeks. But neither of them really forget about those stolen kisses on an early morning.
Las Vegas;
There's a faint music filling the room, a smooth beat along romantic lyrics. Jiho is on his bed, laying down on his tummy and he can't really remember the last time he did something like this.
He is looking at various places he'd want to visit later, Europe, America or some islands, maybe. Right now, his eyes are reading what he could do in Las Vegas, it sounds appealing, the casinos, the clubs, the luxurious hotels, all surrounded by the desert.
Planning to escape? He shakes his head, just planning his future he replies then turns his head in surprise. He thought he was alone and certainly wasn't expecting him to be here.
He grins sheepishly then looks back at the screen of his laptop, the laugh of the other filling the room. The mattress dips under his weight and Jiho chews on his bottom lip briefly at their sudden closeness. Seconds later, Jiho is nudged to the side of the bed and he half-heartedly glares at Yukwon who just chuckles as he takes place next to the leader on the bed.
For a few minutes, they're just both looking at the site until the dancer points out that people can get married in Vegas easily. Jiho almost chokes on his saliva and Yukwon shoots him a weird, amused look, with something unreadable too.
Then, Jaehyo comes in complaining about some dance moves he doesn't understand so Yukwon stands up and Jiho already feels the loss of his warmth, until Yukwon leans in to whisper in his ear that he'd like to go to Vegas, too.
Jiho doesn't come out the room until late at night, until he is sure he isn't blushing anymore, until he is sure his heart is beating at a normal rate because did Yukwon just imply he wanted them to get married?
mix;
It's in the way their fingers fit together. It doesn't feel out of place, in contrary, it feels so right, they both could take over the world.
It's in the way their eyes meet when they're in the same room. They don't need much words for them to understand each other. Most of times, a glance is enough.
It's in the way their lips mold against the others'. The first few kisses are shy and tentative, they barely dare do more than steal a quick peck but it's enough for the electricity to run down their spine.
It's in the way their bodies are pressed together. It's new and they don't know what to do but they learn together, they guide the other and soon, it's as if they've known each other since forever.
It's in the way he breathes I love you's against his skin.
And it's in the way he replies by saying his name.
nuzzle;
Somewhere between late at night and early in the morning, you know, that hour where it's just an in between, Jiho finds himself wide awake. He isn't stressed or he just didn't wake up from a nightmare, no. He just can't sleep, it happens, so he stares up at the ceiling then grabs his phone and plays some random game. He is tempted to send a general message to see if someone's awake but after reflexion, he chooses not to. Quiet is good.
He doesn't feel tired but he doesn't feel like getting up either, and he starts to get annoyed because what is he supposed to do then? He heaves a sigh and rolls on his stomach with cheeks puffed out.
A text comes. You're loud, it says. Jiho stiffles a laugh and glances over his bed to see Yukwon, eyes squinted at the bright screen of his phone. Sorry, can't sleep, he replies and looks once again towards the dancer with a small, apologetic smile.
No reply comes after that and Jiho just feels a little disappointed, really, because he thought he could text with Yukwon for a while but oh well, he must be tired too, it's not a problem. The thing is, it becomes a problem when Yukwon joins him into his bed, frowning sleepily- and he is so adorable, what even.
Sleep, he hears and Jiho blinks because hey, he is the one supposed to give the orders there! And then, Yukwon's face is buried into the crook of his neck and Jiho inhales sharply.
Minutes later, he is asleep.
oblivious;
From: Jaehyo
To: Park Kyung
They are so stupid!! Just look at them! Jiho even gave Kwon a piece of meat!!!!
From: Kyung
To: Tangerine hyung
I KNOW. THEY MAKE ME SO MAD. LOOK AT THEIR EYES.
[GROUP CHAT]
Jaehyo: THEY ARE ANNOYING.
Minhyuk: You should stop glaring at them or they'll notice.
Kyung: THAT IS THE POINT. THEY HAVE TO NOTICE.
Taeil: Just let them be.
Jihoon: THEY ARE SO FRUSTRATING, HYUNGS.
Kyung: THE WAY JIHO LOOKS AT YUKWON. I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE. HOW DOES YUKWON DOESN'T NOTICE??!!!!
Minhyuk: Because he looks at Jiho the same way, and he thinks it's one-sided.
Taeil: Jaehyo- Did you just slam your forehead against the table?
Jihoon: THEY ARE LOOKING AT US. ACT INNOCENT.
Minhyuk: It's complicated to be innocent when we're all texting.
Taeil: Jaehyo, are you alive?
Jaehyo: LOOK AT THE GLANCES THEY GIVE EACH OTHER. ARE THEY FILMING A DRAMA OR WHAT. I AM DONE.
Jihoon: CAN I KNOCK THEIR HEADS OR SOMETHING.
Minhyuk: No. Unless you want them to kill you.
Taeil: Just calm down, guys.
Kyung: CAN NOT. I AM SO FRUSTRATED-- OH LOOK NOW JIHO JUST PUT THE BLANKET AROUND YUKWON'S SHOULDERS.
Kyung: IF THEY DON'T KISS TONIGHT I AM BECOMING A PRIEST.
Taeil: You can go to Church already, they both don't know what to do with their feelings.
Jaehyo: SO ANNOYING. ARGH.
Jihoon: WHERE ARE THEY LEAVING TO?!
Minhyuk: Probably going to do the dishes.
Kyung: I SWEAR IF THEY DON'T MAKE OUT I WILL FORCE THEM.
Jaehyo: I WILL HELP YOU.
Minhyuk: You guys are even loud when writing.
Taeil: You managed to give me a headache. I'm out.
Minhyuk: Same.
[Taeil offline; Minhyuk offline]
Jaehyo: TRAITORS!!!
Jaehyo: WHERE IS KYUNG???
Jihoon: HE IS SPYING THEM.
Jaehyo: IS THAT HIM UNDER THE BLANKET ON THE FLOOR?!
Jihoon: .....
Jihoon: YES.
Jihoon: HYUNG STOP HITTING YOURSELF.
Jaehyo: I AM DONE WITH ALL OF YOU!
[Jaehyo offline]
Jihoon: HYUNG! HYUUUUUNG!?!
Jihoon: T^T
Jihoon: I'm all alone.
[Jihoon offline]
Kyung: HEY. HEY.
Kyung: ...Uhm, guys??
Kyung: ...Great. Now everyone has left.
Kyung: YOU ARE ALL LIKE JIHO AND YUKWON! DUMB IDIOTS.
perfume;
When Jiho buys himself a new perfume, he has no idea the effect that it's going to have on a certain member of the group. It's strong at first, but the more you smell it, the lighter it gets and Jiho thinks that it fits him somehow: he looks strong when you don't know him, he is in his own world, but if you spend a lot of time with him, you notice that he can be sweet and out-going and fun to spend time with.
Jiho, though, doesn't really think much about it, he only found a perfume that he liked, nothing more. He goes back to the dorm and greets everyone and then, humming a song he forgot the title, walks to his bedroom. They are going outside tonight, they want to have a relaxing night just between them, so Jiho goes to shower and puts on his new perfume.
He thinks he doesn't look too bad. He walks out the bathroom, running a hand through his hair and smiles at Yukwon who walks by him. Jiho doesn't really know what's happening after that, but all he registers is him being pinned against the wall by the dancer, who buries his face in the crook of his neck.
He lets go after that, and Yukwon's face is bright red and he is gone within seconds but Jiho still feels him against his body and his mind just stopped working and he doesn't understand what happened?!
And it is only the beginning of Yukwon being stuck to Jiho- much to everyone's delight.
The morning after they went out, Jiho wakes up with a comfortable warmth against his body and when he finally understands what it is, or rather who, he can't stop that warmth to spread on his cheeks. Yukwon has his legs tangled in between his and an arm thrown around Jiho's torso while his face fits perfectly against his neck. Jiho goes back to sleep, a smile on his lips.
Now, it's like Yukwon can't get away from Jiho, and he is not going to complain. Who would complain when he can hold this gorgeous man in his arms every night?
queue;
It's not a date, it's not a date, it is NOT a date.
Or at least, that is what Jiho tries to convince himself. But it's complicated when he feels excited and stressed at the same time to go to the theater with, wait for it, Yukwon. What a surprise. They were all supposed to go there, but obviously, everyone else had cancelled it. (They all were suddenly busy with something.) Everyone but Yukwon.
Anyway, so here he is, waiting in line to buy the tickets to see a movie they both chose, while Yukwon is by his side, munching on oh so damned popcorns. There is a lot of people and he wonders if they're going to get recognized but until now they don't. Jiho is still stressed though, because there is so many things going on in his head.
They look at each other and Yukwon smiles, and he looks really happy, and Jiho feels happy too, relieved even and before he realizes it, they're already sitting in the dark room to watch the movie. The box of popcorn is between them, but it doesn't stop their shoulders and knees from touching and somewhere during the movie, their fingers are laced.
Nope, it is definitely not a date.
(maybe it was, he thinks, after they kissed.)
rules;
one: no kisses allowed inside the dorm.
- or how many times the guys found them making out in any possible place. (come on, now! even on MY bed?! Kyung shouts and gets ignored.)
two: when it comes to fanservice, stay subtle.
- or try to make Jiho keeps his hands off Yukwon for a few hours, which is impossible. (they did try to separate them once, but the mood got gloomy.)
three: no showering together, the maknae is still innocent.
-or how they leave the dorm each time the bathroom door is slammed shut and locked, Yukwon's laugh suddenly turning into moans. (I am not that innocent, Jihoon protests when he wants to stay to listen, I'm curious!)
four: don't forget to spend some time with other people, aka, bandmates and friends.
-or how something changes when they're in the same room, they gravitate to the other like two magnets. (are you filming we got married or--?)
"Are these rules even needed?" Taeil asks, an eyebrow raised. "It's not like they would listen."
"Or read them." Minhyuk agrees then shakes his head before turning his attention back to his phone- he is trying to take a selca.
"But at least they're here!" Kyung replies as he sticks the paper against a wall, proud with himself. "They can't ignore the rules."
"...But, hyung, we're talking about Block B's leader." Jihoon says, chuckling. "Did we ever follow the rules?"
A silence falls upon the group and Kyung is stubborn so he leaves the paper where it is, just when Jiho and Yukwon come back from something like, a date. "Hey, guys, there is someth-" They just walk by him, whispering sweet words into each other's ears. Taeil giggles.
"You got ignored once again." Jaehyo cackles and Kyung throws him a slipper. A fight ensues and the rules are, well, forgotten.
song;
It's a few months after their debut when Yukwon comes to see Jiho, almost tripping because of Jihoon sleeping on the floor, dead to the world. Jiho is scribbling lyrics once again and he barely notices the dancer that sits down next to him. After a few minutes of being ignored, Yukwon chooses to nudge him because it's important and for once, the song Jiho's writing will have to wait.
Jiho groans. "What do you want, I'm working, here. Go bother someone else." His sharp tone surprises Yukwon who backs away a little before he remembers the important thing he has to ask Jiho.
"There's something I have to ask you, though." He crosses his legs and smiles, Jiho glancing at him with a sigh as he puts down the notebook and the pen on his lap. "There's a 10cm's concert and-"
"No." Jiho cuts him off. Not that he isn't interested but he is already planning their comeback for the summer, and he can't waste time going to concerts.
"But you promised me, and honestly, it would do good to relax for a few hours. The song can wait until tomorrow, or even later tonight. Not 10cm. Come on." Yukwon stands up and he knows Jiho will follow because he promised.
They do go to the concert and even wander outside after it and Jiho couldn't remember the last time he enjoyed himself like this, without any pressure. Yukwon is laughing by his side and Jiho can't help the wide smile to form on his lips and there's a strange warmth spreading all over his chest.
Few hours later, while everyone's asleep, Jiho finishes writing the song and there's still the hint of a grin on his face, Yukwon's laugh still echoeing in his ears.
trust;
The door is closed. The lights are off. He is alone.
The closets are empty, the fridge is, too. They moved out.
He hears his own sigh against the walls, then, with lips pursed, he walks out. The dorm is liveless and Yukwon wonders if they'll be able to stand back up. It feels like they failed everyone once again and he doesn't know if they'll have the strength to keep on trying, always coming back only to get knock out in return.
His steps take him to the recording studio, he knows Jiho could be there, working, writing, trying out new things, so he is stunned when he is nowhere to be found. His heart hurts and Yukwon shakes his head in defeat. His eyes are burning with unshed tears and panic floods into him. Thousands of what ifs run through his mind. He leans heavily against the wall and lets out a shaky breath: Jiho always told them he will never give up, that he'll always be here. So why isn't he present when Yukwon needs him, his presence, his voice and smile to get reassured that everything will be alright?
He trusted him, he is their leader, he...wouldn't...just leave him.
"Yukwon?"
universe;
"Do you think we'd meet and still be together in another life?" Yukwon asks softly while they're in bed, staring up at the ceiling. They woke up from a nap, Jiho's arm around Yukwon's shoulder, the blanket tangled in between their laced legs.
Jiho hums quietly and bends his arm so he can thread his fingers through the dancer's messy hair. He isn't one to think about other lives or alternative universe but Yukwon likes to wonder what it would be like if they weren't born when they did, if they didn't meet, and a lot of others silly questions. The boy snuggles into Jiho's embrace, and they both smile. "I don't know, maybe?"
"You and your maybe." Yukwon mumbles, and the other buries his nose into his hair as he laughs quietly. "But seriously, Jiho. Do you think we would sti-"
"Shut up." He whispers and presses a gentle kiss to the dancer's mouth who immediately kisses back. It goes on for a few more seconds and then they're both smiling, forehead and tip of noses touching. "All I care about is that you're my present, and most likely my future, okay?"
It seems enough for Yukwon who just nods and goes back to nap. Jiho smiles and sighs happily, thinking that, of course, they would still meet, no matter when and where.
vow;
It's been almost a week since Jiho is staring at this white paper and nothing comes into his mind. It must be a joke, he groans, letting his head fall forward against the table. He can write hundreds of songs but this, this stupid thing, he can't.
He can already hear Kyung laughing at him. He is going to get teased forever if he can't come up with some poetry shit. Actually, he doesn't really care about the others or himself, he just doesn't want to disappoint his...future husband.
This only thought makes him grin like cat with cream and his mood instantly get better. He knows that Yukwon doesn't need a song or a thousand love letters to understand Jiho's feelings, they are way long past that. He still remembers the first time he said "I love you" to him; it was like he just gave Yukwon the universe. He had never seen such a beautiful smile on his smile and he still can't believe he is able to see this smile everyday, and for all the rest of his life.
Inhaling deeply, Jiho straightens up and starts writing about what he loves about Yukwon. The list goes on and on, and when he finally puts on the final dot, his hands are shaking. Not because he wrote too much, no. But because of all the love he feels for this man who came into his life and he doesn't realize how lucky he is to marry him.
Now that it's written, Jiho hides the paper in a drawer and runs off to meet with his love, because he needs to see him, to tell him he loves him, to hold him. He only needs Yukwon.
wind;
It was freezing and they were stuck outside, recording for whatever show they didn't know much about. Jiho hated winter, it was so damn cold and no matter how many layers of clothes he was putting on, it was always passing through and he was fucking freezing. Glancing around, he noticed how Jihoon was jumping around and bothering Taeil with his hugs and laughs and everything that Jihoon was.
Next to them, there was Yukwon who seemed half asleep, the tip of his nose all red and a light pout forming on his lips as he seemed to glare at the wind. He seemed frozen and Jiho didn't take a step towards him that an arm was flinged around his shoulders.
"Yah, how long do we have to stay here? Any longer and I'm turning into an iceberg."
"I don't know." He replied with a shrug, his gaze still focused onto Yukwon. He looked very cold but nobody seemed to notice which made Jiho frown with concern. He made his way to Yukwon, leaving a whining Kyung in the back - who instead went to talk to some coordi noonas - and put his hands on the dancer's shoulders. "You okay?"
Yukwon sniffled and looked up at Jiho. "I'm cold, do I look like I'm okay?" He glared, and the leader couldn't stop the soft chuckle from leaving his lips.
"You should have tell me earlier. What kind of leader am I if I can't take care of my members, hm?" He smiled, even though it hurt his lips, and opened Yukwon's coat who instantly protested.
"What are you doing, you fuck, it's cold!" Jiho just kept on smiling and pulled Yukwon's up so they were both standing before he opened his own coat as well and tugged Yukwon in his arms. The dancer was left speechless- just like everyone else who saw them- but felt the warmth of Jiho's body against his and, soon, found himself relaxing.
"Warmer?" He mumbled softly, Yukwon only nodding his head and returning the embrace by sliding his arms around Jiho's waist. It was so comfortable, and Jiho didn't mind the cold much now.
He could even get used to it if it meant having Yukwon in his arms.
xxx;
[from: kwonnie] where are you?
[from: kwonnie] you aren't going to miss practice isn't it?
[from: jiho] nah, I'm on my way.
[from: kwonnie] okay, cool. see you.
[from: jiho] yeah, love you.
[from: jiho] i meant, see you. stupid autocorrect. that must be kyung's fault.
Jiho stared at his phone, only wanting to throw it away and bury himself in the ground because what the hell did he just write?! He glanced around and the idea of drowning himself in the Han river briefly went through his brain. No, but really, who writes "love you" to a bandmate? That was- okay, that wasn't totally a lie but come on!
He wouldn't be able to look at Yukwon in the eye or even be near him or talk to him. Jiho really wasn't having a panic attack, he was just freaking out in his head and the closer he was getting to the practice room, the slower he was walking. What was this his life? What has he done in his previous life to do such stupid things?!
"LOVE YOU"?! He snickered, almost slamming his head against the closest wall (but chose not to because of the people already giving him weird looks). After stomping his feet like a child who didn't get his candy, Jiho took a deep breathe, he needed to be cool about this, it wasn't such a big deal after all.
So why couldn't he just walk in?! His hand was on the door's handle but it wouldn't just move and what was wrong with today?! Jiho was about to give up and run away when he got a message, which made him squeak in surprise.
[from: kwonnie] by the way, "see you" too.
year;
January was when you saw the tears in his eyes but you couldn't bring yourself to wipe them away. He needed you but you walked away.
February, you tried to distract yourself from everything related to him. You went out with friends, images of him running through your mind as soon as you were alone.
March seemed so long, nothing was happening and the nights were a mix of insomnia and nightmares. You craved him.
April, and the trees bloomed. Just like you, slowly. You went back to work, more eagerly than ever and you started to smile again. But it wasn't still enough, somehow.
May was the moment where everything was whole again. It felt amazing to suffer together, because in the end, you knew you'll succeed, that this was all worth it. And he was here.
June, the weather was getting hot, and your stress kept increasing as well as the excitement. You remember nights spent staring up at the dark sky with him by your side.
July, you all couldn't make the difference between days and nights, you almost died dancing and singing but you were getting there. And you held his hands.
August was the last month before everything started officially again. We won't give up, you said, and glanced at him. I won't give up on you, you thought.
September became explosive. It was hard to stay focused because your world totally changed. This time, you kissed his (happy) tears away.
October passed in a blur, between promoting and writing and being inspired and thanking the fans and everyone else, you didn't have time for yourself. But he did have time for yourself.
November could have been quieter but it was just as exciting as the previous month. You couldn't remember when you had been happier. Maybe when you kissed him on stage.
December brought you a lot of good things, and you can't help but feel thankful. It's alright if the new year isn't as good, you have everything you could ask for. And you have him.
zero;
It's midnight. The night is calm and a gentle breeze blows through the open windows, making the curtains dance into the summer night.
Jiho is awake, laying on his back and he glances over to the man sleeping by his side. A smile automatically appears on his lips and he turns on his side, pulling the other closer to his naked body with an arm wrapped around his waist. A soft kiss is pressed against a bare shoulder.
There's no lust, no pretention. Just simple and pure love.
They're married since five years now. They have their own house and Jiho is a successful producer. Oh, he didn't leave the stage, he often meets with Kyung and Jihoon for hip-hop performances. He is addicted, no one can take this away from him.
But he is even more addicted to Yukwon, his husband, the man peacefully sleeping in his arms. After Block B retired, Yukwon studied to become a teacher, and now, he is giving dance classes. It makes him happy and that's all Jiho could ask for.
It's midnight and Jiho had never felt so content and calm with his life. Yukwon turns around to face him and opens his eyes just a little. Sleep, he whispers through a kiss. And Jiho does.
genre: mostly fluff
rating: pg
pairing: jiho x yukwon ; appearances of the others members of block b
summary: 26 little drabbles/moments between Jiho and Yukwon, following the alphabet.
you're my favorite book to read.
arms;
It's snowing outside and they're practicing some dance routine, just the both of them. It's nothing new ever since Minhyuk started dancing with his own crew because Jiho wants to get better at dancing and it's certainly not Jaehyo who would help him.
They're taking a break and Jiho takes a gulp of water when his eyes fall on Yukwon through the mirror. He is all sweaty and he can't help but to stare at his biceps and before he knows it, he is standing by the dancer's side, a hand on his skin.
Of course, Yukwon is startled and looks at him quizzically. Jiho mumbles a quick "you have nice arms," then shrugs and goes back to dance, unable to shake off the feeling of Yukwon's smooth skin under the palm of his hand.
bed;
Yukwon is laughing at something he watches on the tv, leaning against the headboard of Jiho's bed. Jiho, he, is laughing too although he feels a bit tensed because his friend is next to him on his bed in his apartment and Jiho can't stop thinking about kissing him and just what the fuck is wrong with him lately!
He doesn't know if it's because they've gotten closer these past few weeks or if he is just so desperate that he is attracted to guys now, but Jiho has long stopped denying that he really wants to kiss Yukwon. All kind of kisses, really, he often thinks about it, finding himself staring at those lips, wondering how they would fit against his then on his body.
Needless to say that Jiho doesn't invite Yukwon over in his apartment anymore if it means avoiding the dancer and keeping a distance of security.
clothes;
It's a mess in the dorm, they didn't clean it for days due to schedules and Jiho can't seem to find his favorite sweater. He accuses Kyung to have stolen it then each of the present members until Yukwon comes out the bathroom, wearing it. Jiho is left speechless for a second, barely registering Minhyuk who snickers behind him.
Yukwon doesn't ask if Jiho wants his sweater back but instead, he hands him over one of his sweater and the leader suddenly all but feels stupid when his heartbeat increases a little at the only thought of sharing clothes with Yukwon. Get a grip on yourself, he thinks and then spends the day annoying Kyung because that's the only thing he found to get his mind off a certain someone.
desire;
A few days later, they're all gathered into a changing room, stylists giving them clothes to try, hairstylists trying to do something with Taeil's hair and Jaehyo is somewhere talking about how soft his skin looks after he put on BB cream.
They are a bit late for the photoshoot so everyone is quickly walking around, squeezing themselves through the people and Jiho is taking his shirt off when suddenly, someone is pushed against his bare skin and there's a warm breath on his neck so he turns his head and-- oh, fuck. His nose bumps against Yukwon's and they stare at each other for two seconds which seems an eternity until the dancer is dragged away by some noona.
They aren't near each other during the photo shooting but Jiho feels his back buzzing with the memory of Yukwon against it and he just can't focus and it's becoming a serious problem.
encens;
More than a simple physical attraction, Jiho understands quickly that he likes his friend more than he should. He doesn't know how to deal with all of this but doesn't dare asking advice either because it's already confusing enough. He tries to stay discreet and keep himself busy, he doesn't want to think about his feelings even though it's not easy because goddammit, Kim Yukwon keeps finding his way through his mind even when he should be busy working. And he knows that if he suddenly becomes distant with him, people around them will start asking questions and Jiho hates it.
Which explains why he is currently being massaged by a girl whom he would have looked at and enjoyed the body if it weren't for Yukwon being next to him, body shining with coconut oil. Relaxing music is playing in the background and the candles are giving a soft glow to the room and Jiho just feels good. His head is turned to Yukwon and their eyes meet, gentle and sleepy and Yukwon smiles, Jiho mirroring it immediately.
It's probably because of the ambiance, they're both so relaxed and Jiho doesn't even think about anything but how content he is. He stretches his arm out and takes a hold of Yukwon's hand, barely registering the gasps of the women massaging them as he slowly falls asleep, never letting go of the hand he is holding.
flower;
They're all at a recording for a show, and it's fun, really. The guests are nice towards them and the boys are relaxed, there is no pressure. Jihoon keeps poking at Taeil, glancing at the pretty women and their long, milky white legs and their clevages, then he points at Kyung who is trying to look cool and kind of distant but they know, they definitely know that he tries to get their attention by laughing a little too loud, by glancing at the women every now and then.
Jiho notices too and he chuckles to himself but in his line of sight, there is Yukwon whom seems a bit off, lost in his thoughts. Minhyuk waves a hand in front of his face and Yukwon blinks then smiles, punching the dancer's shoulder playfully. Jiho's heart aches for a brief moment but they have to go back to recording the show.
Minutes later, the boys are given flowers, they have to give it to the person - woman - they find to be the prettiest. Jiho glances at Yukwon he just can't help it because the boy is pretty, his eyes, his cheeks, his cute, so cute and perfect nose and those damned lips. But he plays along, choosing one of the girls facing him, but they all look the same to him, same make up, same fake smile, same way of pouting, of acting innocent and cute. He internally cringes.
After they're done recording, in the backstage room there's Jaehyo getting a phone number and the guys go crazy, they're teasing and encouraging him. While the room becomes a mess, Jiho pulls out a flower he took at the end of the recording and places it on Yukwon's backpack.
(His heart skips a beat when Yukwon holds onto the flower in the van, his nose brushing against the petals.)
glass;
It's quiet. There's a wall and a window separating them. Jiho is at his usual place, sitting on a chair, fingers clicking on the mouse to add effects to the voices, to the beat. But nothing else is usual for the moment. The music has long stopped and he is staring at the recording room where Yukwon was a while ago. He sees his reflection in the glass but doesn't dare to look for more than one second.
He messed up. That's as simple as that. Everything went well at first, it was just the two of them and Jiho asked Yukwon to go sing something he wrote during the night. Something he wrote with the dancer in mind but it sounded like he was talking about a girl, and he got surprised when Yukwon made a remark. He asked if he was in love with someone, and Jiho didn't know what to reply so he just said no and something flickered into Yukwon's eyes.
The mood changed after this and Yukwon left, pretending that he got a text from Minhyuk and Jiho said nothing.
He just turned the music louder.
haunted;
Nothing much happens for a minute or so. They're in the dark and they don't move until something pops out from a corner and scare them to death. It's a mess, really: Jihoon's loud scream and laugh makes Jaehyo squeal and punch the closest thing to him, which is Kyung. Kyung then flails around and smacks Taeil in the nose without seeing anything and it's hilarious really, Minhyuk can't stop laughing although he doesn't feel really at ease when there is a breathe hitting the back of his neck. Jiho curses and is ready to hit anything getting close to him when two arms circles his waist and a face is buried against his shoulder. He immediately recognized Yukwon's familiar scent and touch and everything, and he freezes before he awkwardly pats the shorter boy on the head, secretly enjoying the moment.
Jiho understands then that Yukwon is scared of noises in the dark and, if coming to haunted house meant having Yukwon cling to him, then he'd gladly do a hundred of them.
illicit;
He is addicted, he craves for him. It's not good, it wasn't supposed to happen like this. Yukwon is like a drug, he is everywhere, in his mind, running through his veins, always wanting more, more, and more. He thinks that one day he'll get over it, it's not possible to forever feel like this and yet, one night, this night, they kiss.
And it gets worse, it turns into a game of stealing kisses when no one looks, of touching in front of the fans not so subtly, of showing and pretending it's not what it is. Jiho is even more surprised that Yukwon keeps on playing along and the tiny hope of something actually happening between them grows up and Jiho's smiles are wider, Yukwon is hugging back and all is great, he couldn't ask for more.
When the manager finds them making out passionately against a wall, he says nothing and just let them be, it was bound to happen anyway. Even if it's wrong.
judges;
It's about the two of them but there's five other guys.
Jihoon thinks that it's only fanservice at first. They came back from a year hiatus after all and the fans deserve it, to see them all close, even closer than they've ever been. But when it keeps happening, he is confused. He waits for the promotion of Very Good to end, because really, he trusts them, he knows they wouldn't do something bad. So, when the three of them - Kyung, Jiho and himself - are in the van to go to a hip hop festival, Jihoon can't help but to ask Jiho what the hell is going on, because it's like he is stuck to Yukwon. Jiho just smiles and pats his head.
Jaehyo only comments when they're at the dorm. He asks questions, he annoys them, but he doesn't get any answers because Jiho disappears somewhere outside and Yukwon sleeps early - or pretends to - and then Jaehyo whines to the other members but, most of time, he gets ignored.
Minhyuk and Taeil just observe, really. They aren't known to be the most talkative ones anyway. Even when they're alone with either Jiho or Yukwon, they don't talk about it. But they watch carefully, with gentle eyes, with knowing smiles.
And Kyung. Kyung does everything and nothing, he annoys Jiho and teases Yukwon. But he also doesn't push them together, he lets that happen because he is Jiho's best friend and when Jiho wants something, he'll do anything to have it. Kyung knows him, and he is surprised without being surprised. It's Jiho after all.
Jiho and Yukwon. Kyung laughs.
kiss;
Let's go back to a few weeks ago.
It's early in the morning and Jiho wakes up rested. He stretches his arms out and sits up then gets out his bed, a shiver running down his body when his feet touch the cold floor. He walks to the kitchen and chuckles as he sees Yukwon sitting up on the kitchen's counter, hair all messy from sleep and eyes squinted towards a bowl of cereal.
Adorable. Jiho really can't think of another word when Yukwon returns his greeting with a small smile and then, there's some milk on the corner of his pink lips and Jiho stares despite himself.
He doesn't blame sleep or anything when he settles his hips between the dancer's legs, when he wipes the drop of milk away from his lips with his thumb and then replaces it with his own lips.
It doesn't last more than two seconds until he pulls away but he already misses it and when he opens his eyes, Yukwon is blinking slowly, his breathe brushing against Jiho's mouth.
Jiho steals a few more kisses wordlessly, but is it really stealing when Yukwon returns each of the kisses? He doesn't really know. He is just aware that he likes it, a lot, too much.
They part when they hear the other members waking up and they go on with their day without talking about it. And then the next day and the next one until days become weeks. But neither of them really forget about those stolen kisses on an early morning.
Las Vegas;
There's a faint music filling the room, a smooth beat along romantic lyrics. Jiho is on his bed, laying down on his tummy and he can't really remember the last time he did something like this.
He is looking at various places he'd want to visit later, Europe, America or some islands, maybe. Right now, his eyes are reading what he could do in Las Vegas, it sounds appealing, the casinos, the clubs, the luxurious hotels, all surrounded by the desert.
Planning to escape? He shakes his head, just planning his future he replies then turns his head in surprise. He thought he was alone and certainly wasn't expecting him to be here.
He grins sheepishly then looks back at the screen of his laptop, the laugh of the other filling the room. The mattress dips under his weight and Jiho chews on his bottom lip briefly at their sudden closeness. Seconds later, Jiho is nudged to the side of the bed and he half-heartedly glares at Yukwon who just chuckles as he takes place next to the leader on the bed.
For a few minutes, they're just both looking at the site until the dancer points out that people can get married in Vegas easily. Jiho almost chokes on his saliva and Yukwon shoots him a weird, amused look, with something unreadable too.
Then, Jaehyo comes in complaining about some dance moves he doesn't understand so Yukwon stands up and Jiho already feels the loss of his warmth, until Yukwon leans in to whisper in his ear that he'd like to go to Vegas, too.
Jiho doesn't come out the room until late at night, until he is sure he isn't blushing anymore, until he is sure his heart is beating at a normal rate because did Yukwon just imply he wanted them to get married?
mix;
It's in the way their fingers fit together. It doesn't feel out of place, in contrary, it feels so right, they both could take over the world.
It's in the way their eyes meet when they're in the same room. They don't need much words for them to understand each other. Most of times, a glance is enough.
It's in the way their lips mold against the others'. The first few kisses are shy and tentative, they barely dare do more than steal a quick peck but it's enough for the electricity to run down their spine.
It's in the way their bodies are pressed together. It's new and they don't know what to do but they learn together, they guide the other and soon, it's as if they've known each other since forever.
It's in the way he breathes I love you's against his skin.
And it's in the way he replies by saying his name.
nuzzle;
Somewhere between late at night and early in the morning, you know, that hour where it's just an in between, Jiho finds himself wide awake. He isn't stressed or he just didn't wake up from a nightmare, no. He just can't sleep, it happens, so he stares up at the ceiling then grabs his phone and plays some random game. He is tempted to send a general message to see if someone's awake but after reflexion, he chooses not to. Quiet is good.
He doesn't feel tired but he doesn't feel like getting up either, and he starts to get annoyed because what is he supposed to do then? He heaves a sigh and rolls on his stomach with cheeks puffed out.
A text comes. You're loud, it says. Jiho stiffles a laugh and glances over his bed to see Yukwon, eyes squinted at the bright screen of his phone. Sorry, can't sleep, he replies and looks once again towards the dancer with a small, apologetic smile.
No reply comes after that and Jiho just feels a little disappointed, really, because he thought he could text with Yukwon for a while but oh well, he must be tired too, it's not a problem. The thing is, it becomes a problem when Yukwon joins him into his bed, frowning sleepily- and he is so adorable, what even.
Sleep, he hears and Jiho blinks because hey, he is the one supposed to give the orders there! And then, Yukwon's face is buried into the crook of his neck and Jiho inhales sharply.
Minutes later, he is asleep.
oblivious;
From: Jaehyo
To: Park Kyung
They are so stupid!! Just look at them! Jiho even gave Kwon a piece of meat!!!!
From: Kyung
To: Tangerine hyung
I KNOW. THEY MAKE ME SO MAD. LOOK AT THEIR EYES.
[GROUP CHAT]
Jaehyo: THEY ARE ANNOYING.
Minhyuk: You should stop glaring at them or they'll notice.
Kyung: THAT IS THE POINT. THEY HAVE TO NOTICE.
Taeil: Just let them be.
Jihoon: THEY ARE SO FRUSTRATING, HYUNGS.
Kyung: THE WAY JIHO LOOKS AT YUKWON. I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE. HOW DOES YUKWON DOESN'T NOTICE??!!!!
Minhyuk: Because he looks at Jiho the same way, and he thinks it's one-sided.
Taeil: Jaehyo- Did you just slam your forehead against the table?
Jihoon: THEY ARE LOOKING AT US. ACT INNOCENT.
Minhyuk: It's complicated to be innocent when we're all texting.
Taeil: Jaehyo, are you alive?
Jaehyo: LOOK AT THE GLANCES THEY GIVE EACH OTHER. ARE THEY FILMING A DRAMA OR WHAT. I AM DONE.
Jihoon: CAN I KNOCK THEIR HEADS OR SOMETHING.
Minhyuk: No. Unless you want them to kill you.
Taeil: Just calm down, guys.
Kyung: CAN NOT. I AM SO FRUSTRATED-- OH LOOK NOW JIHO JUST PUT THE BLANKET AROUND YUKWON'S SHOULDERS.
Kyung: IF THEY DON'T KISS TONIGHT I AM BECOMING A PRIEST.
Taeil: You can go to Church already, they both don't know what to do with their feelings.
Jaehyo: SO ANNOYING. ARGH.
Jihoon: WHERE ARE THEY LEAVING TO?!
Minhyuk: Probably going to do the dishes.
Kyung: I SWEAR IF THEY DON'T MAKE OUT I WILL FORCE THEM.
Jaehyo: I WILL HELP YOU.
Minhyuk: You guys are even loud when writing.
Taeil: You managed to give me a headache. I'm out.
Minhyuk: Same.
[Taeil offline; Minhyuk offline]
Jaehyo: TRAITORS!!!
Jaehyo: WHERE IS KYUNG???
Jihoon: HE IS SPYING THEM.
Jaehyo: IS THAT HIM UNDER THE BLANKET ON THE FLOOR?!
Jihoon: .....
Jihoon: YES.
Jihoon: HYUNG STOP HITTING YOURSELF.
Jaehyo: I AM DONE WITH ALL OF YOU!
[Jaehyo offline]
Jihoon: HYUNG! HYUUUUUNG!?!
Jihoon: T^T
Jihoon: I'm all alone.
[Jihoon offline]
Kyung: HEY. HEY.
Kyung: ...Uhm, guys??
Kyung: ...Great. Now everyone has left.
Kyung: YOU ARE ALL LIKE JIHO AND YUKWON! DUMB IDIOTS.
perfume;
When Jiho buys himself a new perfume, he has no idea the effect that it's going to have on a certain member of the group. It's strong at first, but the more you smell it, the lighter it gets and Jiho thinks that it fits him somehow: he looks strong when you don't know him, he is in his own world, but if you spend a lot of time with him, you notice that he can be sweet and out-going and fun to spend time with.
Jiho, though, doesn't really think much about it, he only found a perfume that he liked, nothing more. He goes back to the dorm and greets everyone and then, humming a song he forgot the title, walks to his bedroom. They are going outside tonight, they want to have a relaxing night just between them, so Jiho goes to shower and puts on his new perfume.
He thinks he doesn't look too bad. He walks out the bathroom, running a hand through his hair and smiles at Yukwon who walks by him. Jiho doesn't really know what's happening after that, but all he registers is him being pinned against the wall by the dancer, who buries his face in the crook of his neck.
He lets go after that, and Yukwon's face is bright red and he is gone within seconds but Jiho still feels him against his body and his mind just stopped working and he doesn't understand what happened?!
And it is only the beginning of Yukwon being stuck to Jiho- much to everyone's delight.
The morning after they went out, Jiho wakes up with a comfortable warmth against his body and when he finally understands what it is, or rather who, he can't stop that warmth to spread on his cheeks. Yukwon has his legs tangled in between his and an arm thrown around Jiho's torso while his face fits perfectly against his neck. Jiho goes back to sleep, a smile on his lips.
Now, it's like Yukwon can't get away from Jiho, and he is not going to complain. Who would complain when he can hold this gorgeous man in his arms every night?
queue;
It's not a date, it's not a date, it is NOT a date.
Or at least, that is what Jiho tries to convince himself. But it's complicated when he feels excited and stressed at the same time to go to the theater with, wait for it, Yukwon. What a surprise. They were all supposed to go there, but obviously, everyone else had cancelled it. (They all were suddenly busy with something.) Everyone but Yukwon.
Anyway, so here he is, waiting in line to buy the tickets to see a movie they both chose, while Yukwon is by his side, munching on oh so damned popcorns. There is a lot of people and he wonders if they're going to get recognized but until now they don't. Jiho is still stressed though, because there is so many things going on in his head.
They look at each other and Yukwon smiles, and he looks really happy, and Jiho feels happy too, relieved even and before he realizes it, they're already sitting in the dark room to watch the movie. The box of popcorn is between them, but it doesn't stop their shoulders and knees from touching and somewhere during the movie, their fingers are laced.
Nope, it is definitely not a date.
(maybe it was, he thinks, after they kissed.)
rules;
one: no kisses allowed inside the dorm.
- or how many times the guys found them making out in any possible place. (come on, now! even on MY bed?! Kyung shouts and gets ignored.)
two: when it comes to fanservice, stay subtle.
- or try to make Jiho keeps his hands off Yukwon for a few hours, which is impossible. (they did try to separate them once, but the mood got gloomy.)
three: no showering together, the maknae is still innocent.
-or how they leave the dorm each time the bathroom door is slammed shut and locked, Yukwon's laugh suddenly turning into moans. (I am not that innocent, Jihoon protests when he wants to stay to listen, I'm curious!)
four: don't forget to spend some time with other people, aka, bandmates and friends.
-or how something changes when they're in the same room, they gravitate to the other like two magnets. (are you filming we got married or--?)
"Are these rules even needed?" Taeil asks, an eyebrow raised. "It's not like they would listen."
"Or read them." Minhyuk agrees then shakes his head before turning his attention back to his phone- he is trying to take a selca.
"But at least they're here!" Kyung replies as he sticks the paper against a wall, proud with himself. "They can't ignore the rules."
"...But, hyung, we're talking about Block B's leader." Jihoon says, chuckling. "Did we ever follow the rules?"
A silence falls upon the group and Kyung is stubborn so he leaves the paper where it is, just when Jiho and Yukwon come back from something like, a date. "Hey, guys, there is someth-" They just walk by him, whispering sweet words into each other's ears. Taeil giggles.
"You got ignored once again." Jaehyo cackles and Kyung throws him a slipper. A fight ensues and the rules are, well, forgotten.
song;
It's a few months after their debut when Yukwon comes to see Jiho, almost tripping because of Jihoon sleeping on the floor, dead to the world. Jiho is scribbling lyrics once again and he barely notices the dancer that sits down next to him. After a few minutes of being ignored, Yukwon chooses to nudge him because it's important and for once, the song Jiho's writing will have to wait.
Jiho groans. "What do you want, I'm working, here. Go bother someone else." His sharp tone surprises Yukwon who backs away a little before he remembers the important thing he has to ask Jiho.
"There's something I have to ask you, though." He crosses his legs and smiles, Jiho glancing at him with a sigh as he puts down the notebook and the pen on his lap. "There's a 10cm's concert and-"
"No." Jiho cuts him off. Not that he isn't interested but he is already planning their comeback for the summer, and he can't waste time going to concerts.
"But you promised me, and honestly, it would do good to relax for a few hours. The song can wait until tomorrow, or even later tonight. Not 10cm. Come on." Yukwon stands up and he knows Jiho will follow because he promised.
They do go to the concert and even wander outside after it and Jiho couldn't remember the last time he enjoyed himself like this, without any pressure. Yukwon is laughing by his side and Jiho can't help the wide smile to form on his lips and there's a strange warmth spreading all over his chest.
Few hours later, while everyone's asleep, Jiho finishes writing the song and there's still the hint of a grin on his face, Yukwon's laugh still echoeing in his ears.
trust;
The door is closed. The lights are off. He is alone.
The closets are empty, the fridge is, too. They moved out.
He hears his own sigh against the walls, then, with lips pursed, he walks out. The dorm is liveless and Yukwon wonders if they'll be able to stand back up. It feels like they failed everyone once again and he doesn't know if they'll have the strength to keep on trying, always coming back only to get knock out in return.
His steps take him to the recording studio, he knows Jiho could be there, working, writing, trying out new things, so he is stunned when he is nowhere to be found. His heart hurts and Yukwon shakes his head in defeat. His eyes are burning with unshed tears and panic floods into him. Thousands of what ifs run through his mind. He leans heavily against the wall and lets out a shaky breath: Jiho always told them he will never give up, that he'll always be here. So why isn't he present when Yukwon needs him, his presence, his voice and smile to get reassured that everything will be alright?
He trusted him, he is their leader, he...wouldn't...just leave him.
"Yukwon?"
universe;
"Do you think we'd meet and still be together in another life?" Yukwon asks softly while they're in bed, staring up at the ceiling. They woke up from a nap, Jiho's arm around Yukwon's shoulder, the blanket tangled in between their laced legs.
Jiho hums quietly and bends his arm so he can thread his fingers through the dancer's messy hair. He isn't one to think about other lives or alternative universe but Yukwon likes to wonder what it would be like if they weren't born when they did, if they didn't meet, and a lot of others silly questions. The boy snuggles into Jiho's embrace, and they both smile. "I don't know, maybe?"
"You and your maybe." Yukwon mumbles, and the other buries his nose into his hair as he laughs quietly. "But seriously, Jiho. Do you think we would sti-"
"Shut up." He whispers and presses a gentle kiss to the dancer's mouth who immediately kisses back. It goes on for a few more seconds and then they're both smiling, forehead and tip of noses touching. "All I care about is that you're my present, and most likely my future, okay?"
It seems enough for Yukwon who just nods and goes back to nap. Jiho smiles and sighs happily, thinking that, of course, they would still meet, no matter when and where.
vow;
It's been almost a week since Jiho is staring at this white paper and nothing comes into his mind. It must be a joke, he groans, letting his head fall forward against the table. He can write hundreds of songs but this, this stupid thing, he can't.
He can already hear Kyung laughing at him. He is going to get teased forever if he can't come up with some poetry shit. Actually, he doesn't really care about the others or himself, he just doesn't want to disappoint his...future husband.
This only thought makes him grin like cat with cream and his mood instantly get better. He knows that Yukwon doesn't need a song or a thousand love letters to understand Jiho's feelings, they are way long past that. He still remembers the first time he said "I love you" to him; it was like he just gave Yukwon the universe. He had never seen such a beautiful smile on his smile and he still can't believe he is able to see this smile everyday, and for all the rest of his life.
Inhaling deeply, Jiho straightens up and starts writing about what he loves about Yukwon. The list goes on and on, and when he finally puts on the final dot, his hands are shaking. Not because he wrote too much, no. But because of all the love he feels for this man who came into his life and he doesn't realize how lucky he is to marry him.
Now that it's written, Jiho hides the paper in a drawer and runs off to meet with his love, because he needs to see him, to tell him he loves him, to hold him. He only needs Yukwon.
wind;
It was freezing and they were stuck outside, recording for whatever show they didn't know much about. Jiho hated winter, it was so damn cold and no matter how many layers of clothes he was putting on, it was always passing through and he was fucking freezing. Glancing around, he noticed how Jihoon was jumping around and bothering Taeil with his hugs and laughs and everything that Jihoon was.
Next to them, there was Yukwon who seemed half asleep, the tip of his nose all red and a light pout forming on his lips as he seemed to glare at the wind. He seemed frozen and Jiho didn't take a step towards him that an arm was flinged around his shoulders.
"Yah, how long do we have to stay here? Any longer and I'm turning into an iceberg."
"I don't know." He replied with a shrug, his gaze still focused onto Yukwon. He looked very cold but nobody seemed to notice which made Jiho frown with concern. He made his way to Yukwon, leaving a whining Kyung in the back - who instead went to talk to some coordi noonas - and put his hands on the dancer's shoulders. "You okay?"
Yukwon sniffled and looked up at Jiho. "I'm cold, do I look like I'm okay?" He glared, and the leader couldn't stop the soft chuckle from leaving his lips.
"You should have tell me earlier. What kind of leader am I if I can't take care of my members, hm?" He smiled, even though it hurt his lips, and opened Yukwon's coat who instantly protested.
"What are you doing, you fuck, it's cold!" Jiho just kept on smiling and pulled Yukwon's up so they were both standing before he opened his own coat as well and tugged Yukwon in his arms. The dancer was left speechless- just like everyone else who saw them- but felt the warmth of Jiho's body against his and, soon, found himself relaxing.
"Warmer?" He mumbled softly, Yukwon only nodding his head and returning the embrace by sliding his arms around Jiho's waist. It was so comfortable, and Jiho didn't mind the cold much now.
He could even get used to it if it meant having Yukwon in his arms.
xxx;
[from: kwonnie] where are you?
[from: kwonnie] you aren't going to miss practice isn't it?
[from: jiho] nah, I'm on my way.
[from: kwonnie] okay, cool. see you.
[from: jiho] yeah, love you.
[from: jiho] i meant, see you. stupid autocorrect. that must be kyung's fault.
Jiho stared at his phone, only wanting to throw it away and bury himself in the ground because what the hell did he just write?! He glanced around and the idea of drowning himself in the Han river briefly went through his brain. No, but really, who writes "love you" to a bandmate? That was- okay, that wasn't totally a lie but come on!
He wouldn't be able to look at Yukwon in the eye or even be near him or talk to him. Jiho really wasn't having a panic attack, he was just freaking out in his head and the closer he was getting to the practice room, the slower he was walking. What was this his life? What has he done in his previous life to do such stupid things?!
"LOVE YOU"?! He snickered, almost slamming his head against the closest wall (but chose not to because of the people already giving him weird looks). After stomping his feet like a child who didn't get his candy, Jiho took a deep breathe, he needed to be cool about this, it wasn't such a big deal after all.
So why couldn't he just walk in?! His hand was on the door's handle but it wouldn't just move and what was wrong with today?! Jiho was about to give up and run away when he got a message, which made him squeak in surprise.
[from: kwonnie] by the way, "see you" too.
year;
January was when you saw the tears in his eyes but you couldn't bring yourself to wipe them away. He needed you but you walked away.
February, you tried to distract yourself from everything related to him. You went out with friends, images of him running through your mind as soon as you were alone.
March seemed so long, nothing was happening and the nights were a mix of insomnia and nightmares. You craved him.
April, and the trees bloomed. Just like you, slowly. You went back to work, more eagerly than ever and you started to smile again. But it wasn't still enough, somehow.
May was the moment where everything was whole again. It felt amazing to suffer together, because in the end, you knew you'll succeed, that this was all worth it. And he was here.
June, the weather was getting hot, and your stress kept increasing as well as the excitement. You remember nights spent staring up at the dark sky with him by your side.
July, you all couldn't make the difference between days and nights, you almost died dancing and singing but you were getting there. And you held his hands.
August was the last month before everything started officially again. We won't give up, you said, and glanced at him. I won't give up on you, you thought.
September became explosive. It was hard to stay focused because your world totally changed. This time, you kissed his (happy) tears away.
October passed in a blur, between promoting and writing and being inspired and thanking the fans and everyone else, you didn't have time for yourself. But he did have time for yourself.
November could have been quieter but it was just as exciting as the previous month. You couldn't remember when you had been happier. Maybe when you kissed him on stage.
December brought you a lot of good things, and you can't help but feel thankful. It's alright if the new year isn't as good, you have everything you could ask for. And you have him.
zero;
It's midnight. The night is calm and a gentle breeze blows through the open windows, making the curtains dance into the summer night.
Jiho is awake, laying on his back and he glances over to the man sleeping by his side. A smile automatically appears on his lips and he turns on his side, pulling the other closer to his naked body with an arm wrapped around his waist. A soft kiss is pressed against a bare shoulder.
There's no lust, no pretention. Just simple and pure love.
They're married since five years now. They have their own house and Jiho is a successful producer. Oh, he didn't leave the stage, he often meets with Kyung and Jihoon for hip-hop performances. He is addicted, no one can take this away from him.
But he is even more addicted to Yukwon, his husband, the man peacefully sleeping in his arms. After Block B retired, Yukwon studied to become a teacher, and now, he is giving dance classes. It makes him happy and that's all Jiho could ask for.
It's midnight and Jiho had never felt so content and calm with his life. Yukwon turns around to face him and opens his eyes just a little. Sleep, he whispers through a kiss. And Jiho does.