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oo40 [ written/voice ] (backdated to May 20th!)

May 27, 2011 21:44

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It's still hard to believe so much has happened recently. It feels like things haven't stopped since that experiment. That's just Luceti, though. Things are always like this. But I'm still not sure what I want to do. Or what I should do ( Read more... )

deep thoughts, this post is ridiculous, stupid malnosso, she has a lot of feelings, who needs filters, somber not sad, !voice, why are her tags so depressing?, needs more happy, !written, excuse me while i ramble, vanitas sucks, question for the masses

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[Voice] meteorical May 28 2011, 02:47:27 UTC

Always the heavy questions, huh?

Forever...it's permanent, you know? Even as everything around you shifts and changes and turns the world upside down, the things that are forever never change. Forever things and forever people? They're reliable because they're constant.

I don't know if that makes sense, but...that's just what I think.

[Voice] poppetry May 28 2011, 03:00:48 UTC

Sorry! I was just thinking about it...

[ She pauses, of course, while Kairi talks. .... "forever people," huh? ]

Do you think people we've met here can be "forever people"?

[Voice] meteorical May 28 2011, 04:03:32 UTC

[That calls for her own pause. Darn you, Xion.]

...if they've had a huge impact on your life and remain the same with all of the chaos that goes on around here? Yeah, I don't see why not.

[There's another slight pause before she kicks it up to a filter.]

[Filtered]

Have someone particular in mind?

[Filtered] poppetry May 28 2011, 06:15:24 UTC

[ yeah, skipping the formalities here. ]

... you can probably guess.

[Filtered] meteorical May 28 2011, 06:31:23 UTC

I didn't want to assume.

...tell me a little about Luke and how he's impacted things here. I know the basics, and some little details, but what else is there? [Kairi will determine if Luke is a forever person!]

[Filtered] poppetry May 28 2011, 21:33:40 UTC

[ A brief pause. ]

... impacted things here? [ She's ... not really sure what Kairi means. Doe she mean how he impacted her? Cuz then the list could go on for a while. ]

[Filtered] meteorical May 29 2011, 00:55:44 UTC

For you mostly. [Whether Xion knows this or not, Kairi has a mental comparison list for Luke and Riku.] How he's affected you.

[Filtered] poppetry May 29 2011, 02:11:13 UTC

... I don't feel as alone anymore, thanks to him. [ a little smile. ] He makes me ... really want to live my own life. As Xion, not just ... not just a Replica. [ She only barely stopped herself from saying "not just part of Sora." ] Ever since I met him I guess... I guess maybe I feel happier than I used to. Even just thinking about him... [ ... FIGHTING OFF THAT BLUSH AND MOVING ON.

She tucks her hair behind her ear, searching for words. ] He always makes me feel really special, somehow.

[Filtered] meteorical May 29 2011, 07:28:40 UTC

...then I think Luke could be a forever person, definitely. Even with all of the chaos that goes on around here? He still manages to make you feel like you should, and treats you like you should be treated.

Maybe...maybe it's just because he understands somehow. It's hard to say.

[There's another pause, almost like she's debating sharing this or not. But she remembers she's under a filter, and therefore it's okay.]

Jacob's sort of that way, too. Making me feel really special and everything. But it's...complicated. I don't think his impact on me is as strong as Luke's on you, but it's definitely something I couldn't imagine living without.

[Filtered] poppetry May 30 2011, 02:32:13 UTC

[ hee. she smiles. ] I wish I knew Jacob a little better... but he's always seemed nice, when I did talk to him. He must be really special...

[ a pause, then. ] ... he does understand. I mean ... what it's like. It's one of the reasons we became so close in the first place. [ ... very quietly ] It was one of those things Riku never understood.

[Filtered] meteorical May 30 2011, 02:40:16 UTC

He's definitely nice...you should get to know him sometime. He's really fun to hang out with, and he's been showing Riku and I a lot of stuff from his world. It's just...[She'll cut it off, because this is about Xion and Kairi will focus.]

Somehow I figured that was a big part of it. ...Xion, does Luke know what happened between you and Riku?

[Filtered] poppetry May 30 2011, 04:41:59 UTC

[ You know, Xion actually does want to talk about Jacob. She'd love to get to know better the person who makes Kairi happy. Kairi is so important to her... and has become one of her main confidantes. Of course she cares!

... but her question derails all of Xion's thoughts. She sighs, gently. ]

He knows. He knows everything.

[ Even the things she didn't tell everyone else. She can't help but curl her fingers -- thinking of what he'd done, that day, the fight they'd had. ]

[Filtered] meteorical May 30 2011, 04:55:43 UTC

[Kairi will tell Xion all about Jacob someday. They can have a slumber party in her room with popcorn and nail polish and everything. But for now she really wants to get down to the core of it, simply because she's taken a great deal of interest in her not-twin, and she's come to care for Xion due to everything that's happened. Especially with Vanitas, not just her issues with Riku. Kairi's rather protective of the girl now.]

Everything that I know? Or more than that? [She's aware that despite how much Xion's trusted her lately, there are certainly things the girl hasn't told her quite yet. After all, there are probably things Kairi hasn't shared either.]

[Filtered] poppetry June 1 2011, 05:23:27 UTC

[ there's a significant pause. which ... must be telling in and of itself. ]

... other things. But ... Kairi, you're ... you're friends with Riku too. I don't want to... [ ... make this harder. ]

[Filtered] meteorical June 1 2011, 06:42:04 UTC

...whatever you say to me isn't going to change what I think of Riku, just like what Riku says to me about you isn't going to change what I think of you. I'll base my opinions on my own, but because both of you are my friends, I'm impartial. If that makes any sense...[Though she's very aware that it's harder when she hears of the things Riku's done, but she isn't going to deny Xion a chance to tell her something if the girl needs to get it off her chest again.]

[Filtered] poppetry June 1 2011, 07:38:36 UTC

[ ........ a sigh. ]

You know ... a while back, I went to get my death penalty removed. I was gone for a couple days... when I got back I felt sick and tired. I tried to sneak back into my room because I really wanted to sleep... but I found this letter on the floor.

Riku left it for me. It ... it said some really awful things. I got so angry... I didn't really think. I went to find him and I ... we got in a fight.

[ her tone makes it pretty clear this was not just a verbal fight. ]

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