What Can I Say That You Don't Know Already?
This is me
I briefly considered a poem, because I know how much LJIdol reveres the poetic form.
I also thought of a video, except today is pajama day, and I haven't brushed my teeth. (I swear my hygiene is relatively good.)
And then there was the essay, where I poured my heart out and revealed that after all these years, I'd finally figured something out. (cue endless vaguely hysterical laughter)
(And yes I just started my post by discussing what I wanted to write. Breaking all the rules now.)
So instead, a list of things I have discovered about myself/happened to me in the last year or so:
* I now have a full time real adult job that I love/hate in an industry that isn't related remotely to my college degree
*Which means I'll have a lot to say about the fields of education (degree) and healthcare (job)
*I have more moments of genuine grief in the last few weeks than I did in the first year my father was gone
*I am completely baffled by people who can balance a work/family/social life, as despite what I was told, I have no clue how to manage
*I am very very lonely, even with all the lovely people I know online
*I miss music school more terribly than I thought I would (mostly the level of playing)
*I have a codependent relationship with my mother that I choose every day to continue, as even though moving out would be good for me, it would also be terrible, and one more terrible thing in this world is too much to bear
*I'm not as okay with being single as I thought I was
*I have found that I am both a John Watson and a Sherlock Holmes
*I'm not depressed because I'm a sad person, but because I'm such an optimist
*I am not broken, and instead of trying to fix myself, I am slowly learning to adapt myself
*I have become an excellent room painter
*I like lists
*A lot
*I'm sure I've missed many things, but there's the highlights of my year. If you don't know me from previous seasons, hello! If you do: hello!
*T-t-t-t-t-hat's all folks!
I briefly considered a poem, because I know how much LJIdol reveres the poetic form.
I also thought of a video, except today is pajama day, and I haven't brushed my teeth. (I swear my hygiene is relatively good.)
And then there was the essay, where I poured my heart out and revealed that after all these years, I'd finally figured something out. (cue endless vaguely hysterical laughter)
(And yes I just started my post by discussing what I wanted to write. Breaking all the rules now.)
So instead, a list of things I have discovered about myself/happened to me in the last year or so:
* I now have a full time real adult job that I love/hate in an industry that isn't related remotely to my college degree
*Which means I'll have a lot to say about the fields of education (degree) and healthcare (job)
*I have more moments of genuine grief in the last few weeks than I did in the first year my father was gone
*I am completely baffled by people who can balance a work/family/social life, as despite what I was told, I have no clue how to manage
*I am very very lonely, even with all the lovely people I know online
*I miss music school more terribly than I thought I would (mostly the level of playing)
*I have a codependent relationship with my mother that I choose every day to continue, as even though moving out would be good for me, it would also be terrible, and one more terrible thing in this world is too much to bear
*I'm not as okay with being single as I thought I was
*I have found that I am both a John Watson and a Sherlock Holmes
*I'm not depressed because I'm a sad person, but because I'm such an optimist
*I am not broken, and instead of trying to fix myself, I am slowly learning to adapt myself
*I have become an excellent room painter
*I like lists
*A lot
*I'm sure I've missed many things, but there's the highlights of my year. If you don't know me from previous seasons, hello! If you do: hello!
*T-t-t-t-t-hat's all folks!