Mixed feelings...Abound!
I truly am at a crossroads. As I sit here it may be the fucking house arrest that this cold has put me on. It may be the be the hours I have spent by myself just thinking about stuff. It may have been recent things happening to me and the people around me in my life. I don't really know what it is, but it has put me in one of those foul moods. One of those moods where nothing makes sense,(and not only that, cuz that's perfectly normal) but I just don't know how to feel. I am trapped on this island of emotion and there is no recue team in sight. It's not necessarily sad, I'm not asking for sympathy or pity. But it's around that ballpark. There is a desire for action, for something to take place. Something that I feel is quite necessary, but I don't know what that something is. So yeah, I really just have no real concept of anything right now, and I don't have any clue what so ever what the next couple months will bring, I'm not worried, but I'm also not excited for this summer. I simply don't know what I'm doing right now, I don't even know why I'm writing this stupid journal right now! Who needs a drink? Z