[fic] Sanatorium
Title: Sanatorium
Author: poppedeggplant
Pairing: akame
Rating: PG-13
Genre: angst, romance
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys
Warning: Character death
Summary: My heart is stifled, unable to go anywhere in a sanatorium.
A/N: “Sanatorium” is “an institution that treats chronic diseases” and it’s also a Plastic Tree song (which I got some inspiration from and is also recommended to listen to as you read this). Lol no, Kame doesn’t have a chronic disease in this fic, but he is a bit crazy/delusional in here. This is also an akame dream-inspired fic. Enjoy!
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Water kept on washing onto his feet, tiny freezing waves after waves. Persistent gusts of wind continued to beat down on him, his hair a mess and his body a shivering lump.
It was cold.
So very cold.
But it didn’t matter. He needed to be here, playing with the soft grains of sand in his palm. The soft grains of sand he once walked on. He must be here, feeling the icy water on his toes. The icy water he once played in.
It was the only way to remember him, Kazuya reasoned with himself. It was the only way to remind him that he was never alone. Even when everyone tells him that he is.
Jin’s gone, Kame, let go of him.
But he isn’t gone. Kazuya could feel him here every night. He could feel Jin’s comforting hugs when the wind was being too harsh.
He could sense Jin’s scent, breathe in the air Jin exhaled, and brush off the sand Jin had playfully sprinkled on his shorts.
Kazuya couldn’t possibly be alone.
If he was, he shouldn’t be feeling Jin’s kiss against the back of his neck as they embraced.
If he was, he shouldn’t be hearing Jin’s faint laughter as they shared a bitter joke.
Everyone was wrong. So very wrong. Kazuya was not alone. Kazuya had Jin and Jin wasn’t gone. The people around him didn’t understand. They didn’t know.
Jin had said that he loved Kazuya, and that he would never leave him. Kazuya had no reason not to believe in Jin.
The accident never happened, Kazuya had told himself.
The dark coagulated blood was an imagination.
The pieces of glass everywhere, the wrecked cars, they didn’t exist.
And Jin’s limp body was just a hallucination.
Tiny grains of white sand slipped through his fingers as he stared into the evening sky. Another night here, another night to reassure himself, another night to feel Jin’s fingers entwined in his, and another night to feel Jin’s warm breath against his skin.
But those never happened, on that one night. The wind was so very harsh then, sending shivers down his spine, yet he could not feel Jin’s hugs.
He could not inhale Jin’s scent, breathe in his breath.
Tears formed at the corner of his eyes as he called out for Jin in desperate whispers.
Jin
Jin
Jin
Where are you, Jin?
Jin wasn’t embracing him this time. Kazuya couldn’t feel his kisses.
And Kazuya panicked, the tears already streaming down his cheek as he ran the stretch of sand in search for Jin. Crying harder, he fell to his knees, unable to breathe evenly. It couldn’t be. This wasn’t supposed to happen. He should be in Jin’s arms, laughing with him, kissing him. Jin wasn’t gone. Jin was still here.
Clutching his chest, he screamed, an ear-splitting scream.
Jin!
Kazuya’s body went limp as he fell onto the sand. Entwined fingers came undone as if gently saying goodbye. And if Kazuya had called out his name yet again, he still wouldn’t return.
It was cold.
So very cold.
Jin…
Kazuya smiled a bitter smile and a single tear dropped into the sand before his eyes closed on its own accord.
My heart is stifled, unable to go anywhere.
In a sanatorium.
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A/N2: Hope you all liked it…? My dream was really beautiful, as in the atmosphere and not the fact that Jin died in it. I didn’t think the words I used gave what I had in mind any justice because trust me, it was really hard to describe the mental image I had. And I wanted to post something since my ~~~layout change~~~. If you like my new layout, give me a (Y) Okay, done babbling XD Please comment! ^___^v
Author: poppedeggplant
Pairing: akame
Rating: PG-13
Genre: angst, romance
Disclaimer: I don’t own the boys
Warning: Character death
Summary: My heart is stifled, unable to go anywhere in a sanatorium.
A/N: “Sanatorium” is “an institution that treats chronic diseases” and it’s also a Plastic Tree song (which I got some inspiration from and is also recommended to listen to as you read this). Lol no, Kame doesn’t have a chronic disease in this fic, but he is a bit crazy/delusional in here. This is also an akame dream-inspired fic. Enjoy!
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Water kept on washing onto his feet, tiny freezing waves after waves. Persistent gusts of wind continued to beat down on him, his hair a mess and his body a shivering lump.
It was cold.
So very cold.
But it didn’t matter. He needed to be here, playing with the soft grains of sand in his palm. The soft grains of sand he once walked on. He must be here, feeling the icy water on his toes. The icy water he once played in.
It was the only way to remember him, Kazuya reasoned with himself. It was the only way to remind him that he was never alone. Even when everyone tells him that he is.
Jin’s gone, Kame, let go of him.
But he isn’t gone. Kazuya could feel him here every night. He could feel Jin’s comforting hugs when the wind was being too harsh.
He could sense Jin’s scent, breathe in the air Jin exhaled, and brush off the sand Jin had playfully sprinkled on his shorts.
Kazuya couldn’t possibly be alone.
If he was, he shouldn’t be feeling Jin’s kiss against the back of his neck as they embraced.
If he was, he shouldn’t be hearing Jin’s faint laughter as they shared a bitter joke.
Everyone was wrong. So very wrong. Kazuya was not alone. Kazuya had Jin and Jin wasn’t gone. The people around him didn’t understand. They didn’t know.
Jin had said that he loved Kazuya, and that he would never leave him. Kazuya had no reason not to believe in Jin.
The accident never happened, Kazuya had told himself.
The dark coagulated blood was an imagination.
The pieces of glass everywhere, the wrecked cars, they didn’t exist.
And Jin’s limp body was just a hallucination.
Tiny grains of white sand slipped through his fingers as he stared into the evening sky. Another night here, another night to reassure himself, another night to feel Jin’s fingers entwined in his, and another night to feel Jin’s warm breath against his skin.
But those never happened, on that one night. The wind was so very harsh then, sending shivers down his spine, yet he could not feel Jin’s hugs.
He could not inhale Jin’s scent, breathe in his breath.
Tears formed at the corner of his eyes as he called out for Jin in desperate whispers.
Jin
Jin
Jin
Where are you, Jin?
Jin wasn’t embracing him this time. Kazuya couldn’t feel his kisses.
And Kazuya panicked, the tears already streaming down his cheek as he ran the stretch of sand in search for Jin. Crying harder, he fell to his knees, unable to breathe evenly. It couldn’t be. This wasn’t supposed to happen. He should be in Jin’s arms, laughing with him, kissing him. Jin wasn’t gone. Jin was still here.
Clutching his chest, he screamed, an ear-splitting scream.
Jin!
Kazuya’s body went limp as he fell onto the sand. Entwined fingers came undone as if gently saying goodbye. And if Kazuya had called out his name yet again, he still wouldn’t return.
It was cold.
So very cold.
Jin…
Kazuya smiled a bitter smile and a single tear dropped into the sand before his eyes closed on its own accord.
My heart is stifled, unable to go anywhere.
In a sanatorium.
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A/N2: Hope you all liked it…? My dream was really beautiful, as in the atmosphere and not the fact that Jin died in it. I didn’t think the words I used gave what I had in mind any justice because trust me, it was really hard to describe the mental image I had. And I wanted to post something since my ~~~layout change~~~. If you like my new layout, give me a (Y) Okay, done babbling XD Please comment! ^___^v