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[popknacks]

Oh man, i think some way along my upper sec years, i changed. not for the better.
i put up barriers around me, because well, thats the best way to protect yourself.
right?

I lost who i was
2 years ago, i was the little girl whom cherlene claims she loves me every single day.
that time was sweet.
and so was i.
but right now,
can i ever say such things to people again?
i doubt.
i dont know.
seems like the love ran away from me when i started growing older, more selfish. more.
contained?

i dont know.
i need to start,
to change.
really.
or else im going to ruin everything ive ever have.
again.
and nooo, i dont want to go through that,
it sucks, the feeling of losing someone so close to you.
the feeling that you might never talk to that person again.
never see that person smile with the most retarded face ever again.
never quarrel with that person again.

and today. i am going to try my best.
because well, im still such a lovable person arent i? (:
lynette declared that she loves me today hahahaha!
and every other people calls me aunty. hahahahahahah. loved, yeah man!