Hello anxiety, my old friend
My store opened up applications for our online grocery pickup. Basically you buy your groceries online, we shop for you in store, and then you pull up in your car and we take them out to you. I put in for it on a whim, because the service desk is making my anxiety and stress incredibly high.
I think I'm going to like the job, but for two things:
one, we're timed on how fast we shop for groceries. They want us to do 100 picks in an hour. A pick is taking an item off the shelf and putting it in a customer's shopping cart. The equipment shows us exactly where the item is located, which helps, but I'm pretty sure I won't be all that fast at first.
two, the hours are crazy. The available shifts are: 5am - 2pm, 8am - 5pm, 11am-8pm. I am not a morning person. And I don't drive, because driving is terrifying and I can't afford a second car + car insurance anyway. So my ride is basically going to have to get up at 4am some days to take me to work, and I feel so guilty. They, at least, can come home and go back to bed. I'm a little worried about my ability to go to bed at 8pm, however. But my boss said - and hopefully she sticks with it - that she'll work with us, and if we have a preference for a shift, she'll try to work it out so we get majority of those. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Also, I'm going to miss a large chunk of training because I'm going to Squee lol. But I put in for that vacation back in March or so, which means there's nothing they can do about it.
This past Wednesday, we were woken up at 5:45am by my sister-in-law, Lee. She had received a phone call saying my brother was on his way to the ER via ambulance from work. It turns out he basically crushed his lower leg. He's already had 1 surgery to install a rod to stabilize it. He needs to have a second surgery sometime in the future. Because of his injury, however, it isn't recommended he go back to his house, because all they have are stairs. We have a ramp at our place from a previous occupant, so Mike, Lee, and my 2 year old niece are staying with us for 5-7 days.
This is going to be chaotic and probably kind of stressful. What REALLY bothers me, however, is their puppy Lucy. She's less than a year old. She's super sweet, but she's not potty trained and she likes to chew up EVERYTHING. My dog is old, and she tore all the tendons in her one leg back in July. With 6 humans + 1 old, injured dog, we're reluctant to bring their puppy over. But the alternative is leaving her alone for those 5-7 days.
I mean, we go over there to check her food & water, and I've gotten my parents to agree to stay at Mike & Lee's for (hopefully) a couple hours a day to play with her. But it doesn't feel like enough. This is REALLY bothering me; so much so I'm struggling to focus on anything else. I plan to stay the night at their place Monday night and hang out there all day Tuesday, since I have it off. But I work the 6 days after that, two of which are going to be 5am days. It's going to be hard enough falling asleep and waking up that early, let alone at my brother's place, so I don't want to sleep there. Plus, I don't want to make my ride get up early then have to drive over to pick me up, THEN take me to work...
Mike and Lee are also low on food, so every time I go over there I'll have to pack my own food.
I'm tempted to say, "fuck it" and just bring her over here. She can stay in my room, my dog can stay with my dad. (Sadie usually sleeps with me). But I'll be expected to help watch my 2 year old niece, so it's not like I can lock myself in my room with the dog to keep an eye on her. And I'll have to be gone for work, so either someone else will have to take on the task of watching her (in addition to watching my niece), or we'll leave her alone in my room, where she'll chew up my books, bite through any cords, etc.
I feel like I'm in a no-win scenario. It's making my anxiety go high, picturing that poor puppy all alone. Maybe I can convince my mom to go over there and stay? But she'll be helping watch my niece while Lee takes care of Mike... This entry was originally posted at https://popkin16.dreamwidth.org/247820.html. Please comment there using OpenID.
I think I'm going to like the job, but for two things:
one, we're timed on how fast we shop for groceries. They want us to do 100 picks in an hour. A pick is taking an item off the shelf and putting it in a customer's shopping cart. The equipment shows us exactly where the item is located, which helps, but I'm pretty sure I won't be all that fast at first.
two, the hours are crazy. The available shifts are: 5am - 2pm, 8am - 5pm, 11am-8pm. I am not a morning person. And I don't drive, because driving is terrifying and I can't afford a second car + car insurance anyway. So my ride is basically going to have to get up at 4am some days to take me to work, and I feel so guilty. They, at least, can come home and go back to bed. I'm a little worried about my ability to go to bed at 8pm, however. But my boss said - and hopefully she sticks with it - that she'll work with us, and if we have a preference for a shift, she'll try to work it out so we get majority of those. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Also, I'm going to miss a large chunk of training because I'm going to Squee lol. But I put in for that vacation back in March or so, which means there's nothing they can do about it.
This past Wednesday, we were woken up at 5:45am by my sister-in-law, Lee. She had received a phone call saying my brother was on his way to the ER via ambulance from work. It turns out he basically crushed his lower leg. He's already had 1 surgery to install a rod to stabilize it. He needs to have a second surgery sometime in the future. Because of his injury, however, it isn't recommended he go back to his house, because all they have are stairs. We have a ramp at our place from a previous occupant, so Mike, Lee, and my 2 year old niece are staying with us for 5-7 days.
This is going to be chaotic and probably kind of stressful. What REALLY bothers me, however, is their puppy Lucy. She's less than a year old. She's super sweet, but she's not potty trained and she likes to chew up EVERYTHING. My dog is old, and she tore all the tendons in her one leg back in July. With 6 humans + 1 old, injured dog, we're reluctant to bring their puppy over. But the alternative is leaving her alone for those 5-7 days.
I mean, we go over there to check her food & water, and I've gotten my parents to agree to stay at Mike & Lee's for (hopefully) a couple hours a day to play with her. But it doesn't feel like enough. This is REALLY bothering me; so much so I'm struggling to focus on anything else. I plan to stay the night at their place Monday night and hang out there all day Tuesday, since I have it off. But I work the 6 days after that, two of which are going to be 5am days. It's going to be hard enough falling asleep and waking up that early, let alone at my brother's place, so I don't want to sleep there. Plus, I don't want to make my ride get up early then have to drive over to pick me up, THEN take me to work...
Mike and Lee are also low on food, so every time I go over there I'll have to pack my own food.
I'm tempted to say, "fuck it" and just bring her over here. She can stay in my room, my dog can stay with my dad. (Sadie usually sleeps with me). But I'll be expected to help watch my 2 year old niece, so it's not like I can lock myself in my room with the dog to keep an eye on her. And I'll have to be gone for work, so either someone else will have to take on the task of watching her (in addition to watching my niece), or we'll leave her alone in my room, where she'll chew up my books, bite through any cords, etc.
I feel like I'm in a no-win scenario. It's making my anxiety go high, picturing that poor puppy all alone. Maybe I can convince my mom to go over there and stay? But she'll be helping watch my niece while Lee takes care of Mike... This entry was originally posted at https://popkin16.dreamwidth.org/247820.html. Please comment there using OpenID.