.iF cErTaIn FeElInG dUzNt Go AwAy, cHAnCez ArE iTs SuPpOsEd 2 B tHeRe.
alrite this is the thing....
i talked to him yesterday for about 10 minutes.and this is the thing...i figured out...i really wna freaking be with him. there is probably no way that i can get him to give me a chance b cuz of jean....cuz i know that if ne thing he'll have to talk to jean about it..and i kno jean wouldnt be able to lie to his own bestfriend and say it duznt bother him.cuz i kno it duz...
and another thing is...l8tley in my thoughts ive bin thinking i really wish i could juz spend ONE nite with him..lyk watch a movie or something to see if my feelings are real.but 1...i dont know if he'll do it...and 2...i wouldnt know how to ask him.u guys are gona prolly think im crazy for saying this but....everyday i juz wish there would be a miracle and hed for some reason call me...or that hed feel tha same way.most of the time..i juz wait for him to juz come online so i can just talk to him.and it kills me that he duznt.its killing me that we havent had a real conversation for a while.i wish i could say i really didnt care..but damn...it kills me.jean himself knos its killing me not talkin to him...i dont know what to do ne more...cuz i mean dont get me wrong im very happy with my life rite now...but i want to be with HIM.inside im gettng destroyed each day...ive felt this way about him for sooo long..and i never got the chance to actually tell him.cuz i mean...he was my ex's bestfriend.and i could never have the heart to break up with michael for him...but honestly...i really wish....that instead of being with michael i wouldve taken the chance with HIM instead.i mean i had both chances rite at my hands and for some reason i went for michael.maybe...i shouldnt have listened to my mind wen it sed "hes hotter" cuz to tell u the truth...danny wouldve made such a better choice..and i shouldve asked lely about him instead of michael...well w.e thats enuff of me moping...
so leme tell u bout my weird ass dream....alrite so heres wat happened...i dont remember much...but wat i do remember was...i walked into my living room and i saw mike layin down on my couch with a kitten(and in the drema it was my sisters)...and wen i saw him i screamed out" wat the fuck is this fat ass mouse doing in our house w/ur cat steffany?!" and she was lyk...its my cat and hes my friend leave it alone..and as soon as mike saw me he got up and ran to the door..and i was lyk..get the fuk outta here asshole...and i went outside....and there was a green explorer...mind u..mike duznt have an explorer n no 1 is his family duz...so then wen he went outside..he ran into the car...but he couldnt drive it for some reason....and i went to the window and i was lyk..get out..and he was lyk..i cant...my dads not here..so i was lyk get out of the fukin car...NOW..and hes lyk..no way..so i stood on my porch and i was lyk..."michael christopher hernandez get ur ass rite here rite now." so he got outta the car..and he sat on the chair in the porch...nd he looked at me..and i was lyk..look lets str8en this shit out..and he was kinda leaning away wen i was lyk talkin to him..and i was lyk..im not gona make a move on u dont be scared...and at one point i called him jean....it was weird...and i was lyk..o im sorry i called u jean..ne wayz....listen.... want us to be friends again and for u to stop being scared that jen will catch u talkin to me..and then hes lyk..but IM..and then his dad pops out and hes lyk...michael shes rite..but we gotta go.and he was lyk..WAIT I CANT WE'RE TALKING and i was lyk...no leave now..plz..i cant take it ne more..so then i woke up...strange dream huh!? i thought it was weird as hell...i cant wait to tell jean about it so he can interprete it....well..ima go now...Lov U guys...Mwaz<3...KikiTa<3
StIll CrUshIn<3DaNny<3
i talked to him yesterday for about 10 minutes.and this is the thing...i figured out...i really wna freaking be with him. there is probably no way that i can get him to give me a chance b cuz of jean....cuz i know that if ne thing he'll have to talk to jean about it..and i kno jean wouldnt be able to lie to his own bestfriend and say it duznt bother him.cuz i kno it duz...
and another thing is...l8tley in my thoughts ive bin thinking i really wish i could juz spend ONE nite with him..lyk watch a movie or something to see if my feelings are real.but 1...i dont know if he'll do it...and 2...i wouldnt know how to ask him.u guys are gona prolly think im crazy for saying this but....everyday i juz wish there would be a miracle and hed for some reason call me...or that hed feel tha same way.most of the time..i juz wait for him to juz come online so i can just talk to him.and it kills me that he duznt.its killing me that we havent had a real conversation for a while.i wish i could say i really didnt care..but damn...it kills me.jean himself knos its killing me not talkin to him...i dont know what to do ne more...cuz i mean dont get me wrong im very happy with my life rite now...but i want to be with HIM.inside im gettng destroyed each day...ive felt this way about him for sooo long..and i never got the chance to actually tell him.cuz i mean...he was my ex's bestfriend.and i could never have the heart to break up with michael for him...but honestly...i really wish....that instead of being with michael i wouldve taken the chance with HIM instead.i mean i had both chances rite at my hands and for some reason i went for michael.maybe...i shouldnt have listened to my mind wen it sed "hes hotter" cuz to tell u the truth...danny wouldve made such a better choice..and i shouldve asked lely about him instead of michael...well w.e thats enuff of me moping...
so leme tell u bout my weird ass dream....alrite so heres wat happened...i dont remember much...but wat i do remember was...i walked into my living room and i saw mike layin down on my couch with a kitten(and in the drema it was my sisters)...and wen i saw him i screamed out" wat the fuck is this fat ass mouse doing in our house w/ur cat steffany?!" and she was lyk...its my cat and hes my friend leave it alone..and as soon as mike saw me he got up and ran to the door..and i was lyk..get the fuk outta here asshole...and i went outside....and there was a green explorer...mind u..mike duznt have an explorer n no 1 is his family duz...so then wen he went outside..he ran into the car...but he couldnt drive it for some reason....and i went to the window and i was lyk..get out..and he was lyk..i cant...my dads not here..so i was lyk get out of the fukin car...NOW..and hes lyk..no way..so i stood on my porch and i was lyk..."michael christopher hernandez get ur ass rite here rite now." so he got outta the car..and he sat on the chair in the porch...nd he looked at me..and i was lyk..look lets str8en this shit out..and he was kinda leaning away wen i was lyk talkin to him..and i was lyk..im not gona make a move on u dont be scared...and at one point i called him jean....it was weird...and i was lyk..o im sorry i called u jean..ne wayz....listen.... want us to be friends again and for u to stop being scared that jen will catch u talkin to me..and then hes lyk..but IM..and then his dad pops out and hes lyk...michael shes rite..but we gotta go.and he was lyk..WAIT I CANT WE'RE TALKING and i was lyk...no leave now..plz..i cant take it ne more..so then i woke up...strange dream huh!? i thought it was weird as hell...i cant wait to tell jean about it so he can interprete it....well..ima go now...Lov U guys...Mwaz<3...KikiTa<3
StIll CrUshIn<3DaNny<3