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My life has been truly bizarre of late - but fun?
I have forgotten how much fun it can be to meet new people. This summer a lot of my friends were not home and meeting new people has always been kind of a "scary" thing for me. I mean, to my friends I'm not exactly shy, but to others I can be - especially when I'm in uncomfortable situations. But as with turning over this new leaf I have been experiencing lately and telling those who need to to fuck off - I have discovered those little things that I can do for myself and stop worrying.
I have a great couple of weeks planned and am trying to spend the rest of the summer searching and rediscovering that person I lost so many years ago.
I finally took the advice of countless numbers of my friends and have tried anti-depressants. I haven't been on them that long but I also haven't cried myself to sleep in a very long time. Could it be that I'm getting out of this funk I have been in for almost 4 years of my life?
I have put two and two together and realized that for about 3 of those years I was in that "relationship" with Andrew and put something together...He never treated me well (yes, you all were right) and emotionally it fucked with me. His emotionally abusive behavior made me hate myself. Now that he is out of my life I'm trying to regain the confidence I once had.
It is not easy, so you will have to bear with me - but a new chapter has opened up and I can, for once in the past 4 years, just focus on myself. Things I want.
It is a fantastic relief and the last time I will write about the douche-bag who fucked it up.
I have forgotten how much fun it can be to meet new people. This summer a lot of my friends were not home and meeting new people has always been kind of a "scary" thing for me. I mean, to my friends I'm not exactly shy, but to others I can be - especially when I'm in uncomfortable situations. But as with turning over this new leaf I have been experiencing lately and telling those who need to to fuck off - I have discovered those little things that I can do for myself and stop worrying.
I have a great couple of weeks planned and am trying to spend the rest of the summer searching and rediscovering that person I lost so many years ago.
I finally took the advice of countless numbers of my friends and have tried anti-depressants. I haven't been on them that long but I also haven't cried myself to sleep in a very long time. Could it be that I'm getting out of this funk I have been in for almost 4 years of my life?
I have put two and two together and realized that for about 3 of those years I was in that "relationship" with Andrew and put something together...He never treated me well (yes, you all were right) and emotionally it fucked with me. His emotionally abusive behavior made me hate myself. Now that he is out of my life I'm trying to regain the confidence I once had.
It is not easy, so you will have to bear with me - but a new chapter has opened up and I can, for once in the past 4 years, just focus on myself. Things I want.
It is a fantastic relief and the last time I will write about the douche-bag who fucked it up.