3:33am

[pope11]

Home alone, can't sleep, again.. Can't take this-- making me think, think, and think some more..

So much negativity with all the things that mean the world to me.. except God, which is such a relief. What would I do without Him?
What do I do now? I pray, I talk to Him.. I need answers..

I need someone here, now, in the flesh.. someone who understands or is willing to understand me, and the situations of my complicated mind, a life which shouldn't be complicated at all..
If I still can't find you, guess I'm just going to have to continue fighting alone.

I guess most of this is ultimately my fault. with the things I've decided to stick with--choosing to be diferrent, choosing to follow my dreams, choosing not to conform to the changes on views of truth in society.. I chose the harder path, and obviously, indeed, am constantly struggling.
Now is where I begin to fall.. the human ness overpowers me, I am weak. somehow talking to myself just doesn't help that much anymore.

Time doesn't wait for anyone.. Shouldn't stop fighting..
Starting to lose hope.. Shouldn't stop fighting..
Give me even just a sip of motivation juice.

3:33am -- make a wish *...*