i'm graduating ...
and i'm depressed about complete bull shit. its almost as if i have no feelings towards graduating. i know i'll miss the place and the people. at the moment, i just cant bring myself to any emotion about the whole situation.
i went out drinking last night with kelly ... at kelly's (a bar) ... and she had to work in the morning, so she couldnt stay out too late. so, i took her home and went to the bar where another classmate of mine works ... but her bar closed @ 1AM, so i went out with her and one of her employee friends to some other bar, where we talked and drank and i stayed depressed for incredibly stupid reasons.
i came home and ate and drank water and watched Weeds ... which is the best show on earth ... i now have a celebrity crush on mary louise parker. even though shes like, 40 and has a kid.
after i ate, i felt fat and full of alcohol (though no longer inebriated) so, the genius that i am, i decided to go for a jog! i'm not in the best of shape and it wasnt the best of ideas. i jogged for about 30 minutes and came back feeling sick and shaking and sweating and wanting to die ... i took a 3 minute shower under luke-warm water and talked to wayne to see if he wanted to get breakfast ... he wants to wait till matt gets off work ... sooo, i thought i'd try and take a nap and have him call me to go out ... yeah, i cant sleep ... why on earth i cant sleep after being up all night, drinking, and then physically exerting myself i have no idea ... so here i am, in this weird, listless mood, wanting to go out for breakfast, just waiting for the clock to move faster ....
i dont want to do my graduation showcase tonight.
i went out drinking last night with kelly ... at kelly's (a bar) ... and she had to work in the morning, so she couldnt stay out too late. so, i took her home and went to the bar where another classmate of mine works ... but her bar closed @ 1AM, so i went out with her and one of her employee friends to some other bar, where we talked and drank and i stayed depressed for incredibly stupid reasons.
i came home and ate and drank water and watched Weeds ... which is the best show on earth ... i now have a celebrity crush on mary louise parker. even though shes like, 40 and has a kid.
after i ate, i felt fat and full of alcohol (though no longer inebriated) so, the genius that i am, i decided to go for a jog! i'm not in the best of shape and it wasnt the best of ideas. i jogged for about 30 minutes and came back feeling sick and shaking and sweating and wanting to die ... i took a 3 minute shower under luke-warm water and talked to wayne to see if he wanted to get breakfast ... he wants to wait till matt gets off work ... sooo, i thought i'd try and take a nap and have him call me to go out ... yeah, i cant sleep ... why on earth i cant sleep after being up all night, drinking, and then physically exerting myself i have no idea ... so here i am, in this weird, listless mood, wanting to go out for breakfast, just waiting for the clock to move faster ....
i dont want to do my graduation showcase tonight.