Things I really hate

[popcicle666]

I hate feeling used.
I hate feeling vulnerable.
I hate feeling scared.
I hate that I might never be better than anyone else in my family.
I hate being alone
I hate that too much shit has happened to me and I just can't talk about it.
I hate being held back.
I hate when Greg doesn't call when he says he will.
I hate falling asleep at night not hearing his voice.
I hate waking up and not hearing his voice.
I hate it when I'm fighting with him.
I hate it when he's mad at me.
I hate being mad at him.
I hate when things start to look up, something drags me back down.
I hate being away from my friends.
I hate being away from school.
I hate being away from Greg.
I hate lying to people.
I hate that almost everything I say is a lie.
I hate that I do what I do because I don't know what else I can do.
I hate not being able to tell people what's going on with me.
I hate not being able to trust most people.
I hate waiting.
I hate wanting.
I hate needing.
I hate looking in the mirror and seeing what I see in my eyes.
I hate the pain.
I hate the heartache.
I hate the fear.
I hate this mask that I wear.