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What can you do when everyone is finding reasons to bring you down and put you in an unstable mind? You try to do everything right but it eventually comes out wrong. When you stay home on New Years and spend the night by yourself watching movies and being responsible and unaccompanied by the immature, obnoxious population of the people you work with. I'll tell you what I wake up to. I wake up to a fire alarm going off, a smoke filled room and someone telling you to get out of the room. I wasn't completely aware of what happened, though I had a small grasp of what had happened when the cold air hit me at 4:15am outside when I was amongst the rest of the building outside.
Many things were going through my mind because I knew the reason we were outside was because of my room, though I knew I had no involvement in the cause of it - I knew I would still be held accountable for some reason. And I was right, because today I'm woken up by a banging in the door and I'm yelled at by someone who is much higher ranking then myself and told to go back to the ship and find someone else and explain it to them. Well, basically the person who was drinking alcohol and who put the item in the microwave had no recollection of doing it and isn't completely admitting the fact that they did it, so the blame is being put on me and him. Now this put me in a confused state of mind, because how the hell do you completely forget that you put something in the microwave. Honestly, it just sounds like an excuse so the blame isn't put directly on the person who actually did do it.
The outcome of this is now putting me in a suspension of sorts. I've been told that I'm more then likely going to be kicked out of the room and I'm going to have to live on the ship again. I absolutely hate having to come back there and having to sleep on my small, uncomfortable bed and having to use the dirty bathrooms and everything else associated with living with 40 other people as opposed to living with only 3 others. If this does happen, I'm going to loose complete faith in the reason I joined this unorganized organization.
Happy 2009, maybe I'll have a reason to post something positive this year.
Many things were going through my mind because I knew the reason we were outside was because of my room, though I knew I had no involvement in the cause of it - I knew I would still be held accountable for some reason. And I was right, because today I'm woken up by a banging in the door and I'm yelled at by someone who is much higher ranking then myself and told to go back to the ship and find someone else and explain it to them. Well, basically the person who was drinking alcohol and who put the item in the microwave had no recollection of doing it and isn't completely admitting the fact that they did it, so the blame is being put on me and him. Now this put me in a confused state of mind, because how the hell do you completely forget that you put something in the microwave. Honestly, it just sounds like an excuse so the blame isn't put directly on the person who actually did do it.
The outcome of this is now putting me in a suspension of sorts. I've been told that I'm more then likely going to be kicked out of the room and I'm going to have to live on the ship again. I absolutely hate having to come back there and having to sleep on my small, uncomfortable bed and having to use the dirty bathrooms and everything else associated with living with 40 other people as opposed to living with only 3 others. If this does happen, I'm going to loose complete faith in the reason I joined this unorganized organization.
Happy 2009, maybe I'll have a reason to post something positive this year.