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i started thinking today, i'm happy, so is this where the progression of my life should end? should i stay a clerk and love my brit and adore my new found home here on out for life? or should i just up and shake things around to try something new? or will something come along that absolutely crushes me and forces me forward as so many things before have done to get me to where i am today?
what happens now?
maybe marriage. i should start genuinely looking for a dress, as well as trying to lose weight.
i love me, i love my size, but i feel bad that i can't be the most attractive person that i could be for luke's sake. he loves me as i am, but i feel he deserves me at my best. plus i work at a health foods store AKA FUCKING HYPOCRITE!
bleh, i think i'll start my master cleanse regiment and clean out all the bad and hope for weight loss with it. some people have experienced a loss of 2 pounds per day under the cleanse.
i miss you jamie and i wish i could just freaking steal you and force you to experience parts of my new life with me. you'd love it here, every thing about this place is perfect. i miss you so much, i need you in my life and it really upsets me that we have these amazing years packed full of eachother with lack of one another in between. COME HOME TO ME!!!!!!!! and get your damn christmas gift before i poop on it. hahaha.
what happens now?
maybe marriage. i should start genuinely looking for a dress, as well as trying to lose weight.
i love me, i love my size, but i feel bad that i can't be the most attractive person that i could be for luke's sake. he loves me as i am, but i feel he deserves me at my best. plus i work at a health foods store AKA FUCKING HYPOCRITE!
bleh, i think i'll start my master cleanse regiment and clean out all the bad and hope for weight loss with it. some people have experienced a loss of 2 pounds per day under the cleanse.
i miss you jamie and i wish i could just freaking steal you and force you to experience parts of my new life with me. you'd love it here, every thing about this place is perfect. i miss you so much, i need you in my life and it really upsets me that we have these amazing years packed full of eachother with lack of one another in between. COME HOME TO ME!!!!!!!! and get your damn christmas gift before i poop on it. hahaha.